Responsibility

My group heads out at 4:45 a.m. tomorrow. Our route is 40 miles from here, so I need to leave the house at 4 a.m. I need to be up before 3, because I need to eat and do other things that you need to do before you head out for a 16 mile run. I am actually excited about this.

Today I went to work and smiled as much as I could. I acted as pleasant as I could and worked as hard as I could.

I thank God I have this program and I learned to take responsibility for myself. Not others, just myself. I don't need to take responsibility for others taking advantage of circumstances to attempt to "throw me under the bus," but I do need to acknowledge that ultimately I am responsible for a deadline not being met. Granted, it was a mutual decision, arrived at after much deliberation between my boss and myself - who is on vacation and cannot defend me now - something the other person knows.

It is OK. I know who I am. I do not need to defend myself. I know what I did. There was a deadline that was not met. I can take responsibility for that and let the chips fall where they may.

And now I need to find my headlamp because it is going to be dark when we start our run.

Woo hoo! This is going to be fun!