I have about an hour before I need to be in bed. I just got home from having dinner with a sponsee. She is a wonderful woman, I am so blessed to have been part of her life for the last quite a few years. I told my sister yesterday that I had started knitting a baby blanket for her newest grandson. She actually said they didn't want a blanket, but preferred a sweater. After I got over my shock that someone would tell you they didn't want what you were already knitting, I was very grateful. The blanket would have taken me months to knit. The sweater should take me a week or two tops. So, then I can start knitting for my very own granddaughter again. I went at my lunch and got a pattern and needles and buttons for the sweater. I need to sit down now and start knitting it.
I also need to sit down by myself and be quiet for at least an hour a day. When I don't, I really feel it.
My self-care is so rigid, but it has been learned by many years of lessons from not doing the things I need to do. To me it is miraculous that by praying and meditating every morning, by being scrupulously honest in my daily affairs, by attempting to think of others more often than myself, by taking time to be quiet and sit still, by eating right and getting lots of exercise, etc... etc... etc... I can live a good life - without the use of alcohol, tobacco, (firearms), anti-depressants, etc., etc., etc.
God is faithful even when I am not.
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I needed this so much today. Thank you!! Rigid self care....hey, whatever it takes! Reading that gave me permission to indulge myself in the same rigidity....thank you again.
Good night MC.
I like how you didn't let the rudeness about the sweater spoil the gift. The baby will be glad no matter what.
Love the addition of (firearms) because .... I laugh as though it's just a silly thing to insert, and then I remember, it was a thought and a part of my story that want of firearms to solve the spiritual problem (which I decided was me or the other guy).
God won!
Firearms? Haha...that woke me up!
happy Friday enjoy your weekend
I got a chuckle out of the firearms part, too. I often think my self care routine will be much more easily controlable once my little ones are older. It is tough - short of leaving my family so I can go live by myself - I will have to settle for less than optimum self-care schedules. Or maybe I am just making excuses...but for now, that is where I am at.
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