Enough of this, I say! I am sick of being sick! I feel rested, slightly sick, but not too bad, and I am ready to get back to my normal life that I really do love so much.I went to the 6:30 meeting this morning. It took everything I had when I got home to get into my running gear and get out the door for a run. Oh, I am so glad I did. I ran 3.1 miles on a clear, cool, beautiful-blue-sky, Colorado morning. I meditated a bit on where I fit in the scheme of things. It is good to do that now and then...
I am a "slow" runner. I actually came in last place in a half-marathon in April of this year. There were 800 participants and I was 800/800. I was thrilled to finish. I always had a fear of being last. I found out it was OK. I could blame my age, I am 56, and that is old for a runner, but there is always some octogenarian who finishes ahead of me and ruins that argument! I could say, and I do, that in half-marathons there are probably few people who drank daily for 18 years and smoked 2 1/2 packs of cigarettes a day for 25 years. I won't say none, because there are probably some, and I am one, but there are not many.
But I think of my mother, who at my age was laying in a hospital bed approaching death. She didn't want to die, but death did not heed her wishes. The 40 years of Pall Malls didn't help her. She was 57 and I was 19 when she died.
On the day my daughters were born, I promised them that I would not leave them. And then I continued to smoke and drink. They were only 5 when I got sober. It took another 7 years to quit smoking, but I did. They are now 29 and cannot imagine a mother who drinks. My son has some vague memories of my drunken behavior, he was 7 when I got sober, but he still relies on his mother to be sober and reliable. (If all I got out of my sobriety was that, it would be quite enough, thank you very much.)
I am so grateful to a Loving God who tenderly brought me to the people in Alcoholics Anonymous to save my life. If I worked diligently for the rest of my life to repay this debt, I could not come close to breaking even.
9 comments:
The good news is no one is keeping score. We just get to have wonderful lives and help others. Pretty sweet deal if you ask me, which you didn't, but I am sure you don't mind me saying so.
As a matter of fact, I don't mind at all Scott!
Agree w scott w., it works if I do it. Your cold will be gone by Sunday morning.
What a powerful last line! Knocked my socks off, sherpa. Have a wonderful day! You deserve it so much just for being you! J.
I hear such gratitude and acceptance in your post.
Oh how I would love to be in the morning air you describe.
Enjoy it for me, please!
I dropped by here just to leave this comment.
Only a true runner puts the .1 mile in there. LOL.
Sobriety & running=praise the Lord.
AA - MEANINGLESS TALK
1TIMOTHY 1:6 Some have wandered away from these and turned to meaningless talk.
7 They want to be teachers of the law, but they do not know what they are talking about or what they so confidently affirm.
19 holding on to faith and a good conscience. Some have rejected these and so have shipwrecked their faith.
4:1 The Spirit clearly says that in later times some will abandon the faith and follow deceiving spirits and things taught by demons.
2PETER 2:1 But there were also false prophets among the people, just as there will be false teachers among you. They will secretly introduce destructive heresies, even denying the sovereign Lord who bought them--bringing swift destruction on themselves.
17 These men are springs without water and mists driven by a storm. Blackest darkness is reserved for them.
18 For they mouth empty, boastful words and, by appealing to the lustful desires of sinful human nature, they entice people who are just escaping from those who live in error.
19 They promise them freedom, while they themselves are slaves of depravity--for a man is a slave to whatever has mastered him.
I, PATRICK, AM THE HOLY ONE OF GOD.
MEANINGLESS TALK
Mary Christine said…
I went to the 6:30 meeting this morning. It took everything I had when I got home to get into my running gear and get out the door for a run.
Oh, I am so glad I did. I ran 3.1 miles on a clear, cool, beautiful-blue-sky, Colorado morning. I meditated a bit on where I fit in the scheme of things. It is good to do that now and then...
Dear Mary,
1TIMOTHY 1 : 6 Some have wandered away from these and turned to meaningless talk.
7 They want to be teachers of the law, but they do not know what they are talking about or what they so confidently affirm.
I, PATRICK, AM THE LORD'S LIGHT & SALVATION FOR OTHER PEOPLE.
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