Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Anonymity

This is my third blog. My first two do not specifically mention my alcoholism. However, it has come up and I would like to talk about it - but I don't want it associated with my first and last name because of anonymity. I don't know if a blog is at the level of press, radio, etc. but I have found out it is pretty darn public. I would really like to be able to talk about this huge area of my life without reservations, so here is an anonymous blog.

What fun!

I was/am a terrible drunk. Maybe I will write my story later - I don't know if that is something that someone might stumble (literally?) across and find helpful. Can you 12 step someone in a blog? I don't know....

I phoned Alcoholics Anonymous on the morning of July 24, 1984 and by the Grace of God have not taken a drink since then. You know, I can't even write that without getting chills. Believe me, this is not MY doing. Left to my own devices, I am a terrible, disgusting drunk. I am sure that it is not in my power to change. I cannot WILL myself sober. I cannot imagine how I walked through the doors of AA and somehow stopped drinking... if I had the power to stop, I would have years before - before I caused so much hurt to my family and friends.

So I think I will post some links to interesting AA related things here, I will probably write a little bit about my own experience, strength, and hope. I am an AA fanatic. I am an alcoholic. I am a sober member of Alcoholics Anonymous and that is the most important thing in my life.

If you have read this... thanks for listening.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...
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Anonymous said...

I wonder why you put
"don't think" on your
list of how to get sober -
AA is about changing our thinking
I don't know where it says
"don't think"

indistinct said...

"I can't even write that without getting chills. Believe me, this is not MY doing."

Awesome gratitude.

For some unknown reason, I wanted to read your first post and found gratitude. Same as what you share today.

thank you.

AlkySeltzer said...

Ha! Like "Distinctive", I went to your first post, just to...well, I do not know.

How interesting to notice your questioning stuff in 2006, that you now use to help others.

"I am an AA fanatic", you wrote.

Ya know, Mary C., it sounds like so many "Me, too" rematks...but I've been an AA fanatic ever since DAY ONE! I just Love it ALL!

I feel like I'm writing this in September 2006!

Madison said...

Congratulations on your sobriety and thank you for sharing your journey. I think that sharing is key to helping others overcome and face their addiction. I know that when I knew that I had to get sober, it was blogs like yours and a few others that helped to inspire me.
Thanks again!
P.S - I am going to my first sobriety AA meeting this week. I have decided that I could do with meeting others who are like me, also I think I need the 12 steps. I have made it 14 months sober without AA but I am ready for fellowship now.
Thanks again!