When I woke up this morning, I was actually looking forward to the day. This is good. This is how I usually feel. This is how I like to feel. I will get out and run a quick 3 miles, then get ready for work, and go and do what I am supposed to do at work, and then I will go to a 5:30 meeting on my way home from work. It all sounds good to me.
Today I think I will be able to do something I could not do on Friday. Each year at Performance Evaluation time, I need to write up a list of accomplishments and rationale for why I deserve the highest rating. I tried on Friday and could not do it. I have never been unable to articulate why I am so great at my job and why I am deserving of the ultimate rating, salary, and esteem! When I tried to write this on Friday and no words would come, it was very disturbing to me. I had told my boss in our verbal evaluation meeting, that although I am not normally a person with an abundance of self-confidence, when it comes to my job, I think I am "fabulous" and I feel I do a great job for which I am uniquely qualified. But I could not write it up. Today I think I can.
I really appreciate the kind comments over the last couple of days. I have really felt rotton. I really appreciate that right now I have no regular readers who feel that they need to write paragraphs and paragraphs of unsolicited advice. Anyway, thanks, I really appreciate you all.
"Gratitude should go forward, rather than backward. In other words, if you carry the message to still others, you will be making the best possible repayment for th help given to you." -- As Bill Sees It, p. 29