Monday, January 08, 2007

Now Wind

This is unbelievable. Now there is very very strong wind (100 miles per hour). Some of the highways in town have been closed because of ground blizzard conditions. Our next snow isn't due until Thursday.

I keep remembering a man named Stoney. He used to come to meetings and say "it snowed on MY CAR last night!" We forget that we are not alone. It is easy to forget that we are not alone particularly when we are sitting in our houses alone - cut off from the world due to bizarre weather phenomena. But today I will go to work and hope to catch up on some work - my desk is a nightmare after all the work I have missed.

Last night I heard what might have been the saddest thing I have ever heard in an AA meeting. A woman came in, late and wearing sun glasses (at night). I never saw her before, but I just assumed she was new or drunk. At the end of the meeting, she shared. She is here from another state, she got sober in July, got her 6 month chip and started drinking again. After she talked for about 5 minutes, she started crying and said she is here because her 21 year old son killed himself. The last time she talked to him, she told him she was drinking again and he was so upset. That was the last time she will ever speak to her son. Ever. Oh God.

This disease destroys everything in it's path. Everything. I don't know why some of us get sober and some of us don't, but I do know that I thank God every day that I get to be sober. It is an unimaginable blessing.

"We learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were alcoholics. This is the first step in recovery. The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed." -- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 30


Anonymous said...

Wow, she sounds like someone my sponsor is working with. That is the scariest thing. I can not even imagine that kind of pain. I think they would have to put me in a rubber room.

Hope your week is wonderful.
Love ya~

Anonymous said...

I have somuch to be grateful for.
For instance ... you!

Anonymous said...

It IS an unimaginable blessing!

What a thing to have to deal with for the rest of her life. Thanks for bringing the message home this morning, that sure packs a punch.

Christine said...

the disease does attempt to destroy everything it can. She is in a mother's worst nightmare. Jope she finds the day when she knows it is not her fault

thank God some find relief and some find recovery

thanks for being here Mary Christine

Trudging said...

Wow! Thank you for reminding me how blessed I am.

recoveryroad said...

A solid andf real reminder of what we're dealing with.

Thank you for helping me to stay sober for another day.


AAwoken said...

That is, however, precisely why I go to meetings. I need to hear the dark side of the disease over and over again. To remind me.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing that story, MC. Try to stay warm over there!

Pam said...

oh that is so sad. I wonder all the time why God picked me!! I was no more deserving than the group I was using with....but none of them got sober....and I did. I took it as my one chance......and ran with it. Stay warm and SAFE

Shannon said...

Oh that is sad. I pray for her not to hold on to that guilt.

I am with you with weird weather conditions. We had high winds quit a bit end of Novemeber and all through Decemeber. We just had 2 wind/rain storms one Fri and one Sun.. also we have snow coming wednesday, which will probably be the same storm you get on Thursday good grief....
and to think the nbc nightly news on Friday said.. "where is winter?" how dare they??? LOL just because the east coast is getting cherry blossoms right now... BOO
Ok I am done now sorry
I am with ya MC

Meg Moran said...

heartbreaking and real...thanks for sharing MC

Anonymous said...

I can't even imagine the pain that poor woman is going through. You're so right about this disease, MC. I'm glad all of you were there for her, and I pray she'll be one of the ones who does finally get it.

Anonymous said...

I thought about that woman all day.

Mary Christine said...

I thought about her all day too Scott. I was hoping she would be at the meeting tonight, but she wasn't. I gave her my number, but failed to get hers. Dammit.

BigSkymAAck said...

That is right on top for how this disease can affect us and those around us. I hope she got wrapped in the love of the fellowship last night. I hope your day went well to.

Anonymous said...

OH MC..I have been wondering how you have been coping with all of that snow !! geesh.
Good luck in all that wind now.
Keep safe and warm.

I was sorry to read this post of a woman whose son killed himself.
If there is any peace to this post is that people like you not only get sober but are there for others when they are ready to also.
Thanks for being you mc.
Come on by for a visit soon..I hope to get the hang of this new blogger Tab xo


God, I feel terrible for that woman but she was in a good place.

MC I love you like a sister...please don't send the snow this way....please.

Still seeing you through the wind and snow.

Anonymous said...

Wow! Thank you for sharing.

Greeting from Malaysia

Anonymous said...

holy smokes, that gal.. wow, I cant even imagine... I will say a prayer for her tonite, thanks for sharing this MC, wow...