Thursday, November 12, 2009

My Story

Once again, I am sick of writing about my daily self every day. I have an idea for a "concept" for 18 days of this blog and am asking for your feedback.

Since I started this blog, I have threatened to share my story. It is probably all here, but not all in one place, and not in chronological order. I wrote the story of my sobriety earlier this year, year by year. It hurt like hell, but I think it was a good thing to do.

I drank for 18 years. I am proposing writing out, for 18 days, year by year, the story of my life that brought me to the doors of Alcoholics Anonymous. I will start tonight, and do this at night because it won't be possible to do, on the fly, in the mornings before work.

I have been reading a lot of blogs lately. Alcoholic and family of alcoholic. And it occurred to me that we alcoholic bloggers show up all shiny and spiritual (which is good) but that a person wouldn't really know what hell we have been through to get to this. The years of hell that most of us had to endure to make us willing to be willing. Because without that willingness, nothing can be accomplished. That desire to change is the one thing that cannot be externally supplied to the alcoholic.

I know that I hear AA members say that they don't like to hear "drunkalogs" - but oh, how I love to hear a person's story! I love to tell mine (or did until recently). If we just like to come and talk about how well we are doing, we could go anywhere and do that! It is important to remember where we came from and where we could return in the blink of an eye. It is also important to let others know the whole picture of who we are. Not just the good, but the bad and the ugly. So that they might also have hope.

What say you, should I write this?

22 comments:

HapJoy said...

Of course you should!! Your an intriguing writer, and I looked forward to each installment of your 25 years of sobriety back in July.

Looking forward to it.

PS...would like to see some pics of your *4 inch* heels. Im 45 and can no way wear those anymore! But I envy those who do!

Carverlane said...

Bring it on!

Lou said...

You read my heart today! The family never tires of hearing how it was and how it is.

Looking forward to it.

Susie said...

Hi Mary Christine! Please write your story. I am newly sober - almost three months - and I love to hear the nitty gritty of a person's story. It helps me feel much less alone/less like a freak when I recognize similarities in another's story to my own story. Thank you for writing this blog, I am really enjoying it.

Scott W said...

Can you tell it in third person? It would be different than any other story I have heard.

Susan said...

Yes, please share your story. I'm still trying to figure out if I'm an alcoholic or a "problem drinker", and it helps me to know someone else's story to see if I can identify. By problem drinker, meaning I really don't have problems caused by my drinking. I drink sometimes to deal with the stress from the stuff going on in my life. To be a member of AA, I'm told you must have the desire to stop drinking, and I'm just not there yet.

I get so much from reading your blog though. Thanks for sharing!

valblog said...

Thank-you, please tell your story. I have been sober for over 3 years now, and continue to grow through the steps and service. It helps so much to hear your comment about seeming shiny and spiritual without people knowing the hell you have been through over the years. Sometimes I feel so discouraged but when I realize where I might be without this program I see how I have been transformed. I have read you daily for some time, and your experiences have helped me so much.

Ed G. said...

1st person, 3rd person or 4th person (someone relating what someone else might have been saying?), I would enjoy anything you care to share.

It really sounds difficult to me (meaning: I couldn't do it).

Good luck.

Blessings and aloha.

dAAve said...

I thinki you should go for it. I like Scott's idea. Somehow, to put a different twist on your story, since you have the time to write it and not verbalize it in an hour.

♥Shann♥ said...

I am down! I understand why too, it is imporant that we always remember where we came from, and for others too to understand...
have anawesome day

Mary Christine said...

I could never write my own story in third person. That would be the job of a writer. I am just a person telling her own story.

Sheryl said...

I would really appreciate the opportunity to read your story. I'm not quite 6 months sober, and haven't run into the honesty and completness of the ture horror it takes to get to AA, not at the meetings I'm going to anyway. It would mean a lot to hear your story.

AnyEdge said...

We are charged with writing and speaking about our experience, strength, and hope, right? I think experience includes the drunken times. Write on, MC.

Willa said...

Please, Mary Christine, write your story! Thank God I'm not alone - I like to know what people have been through so that I can keep trudging along the path. I can only learn from other alcoholics. No normie is going to help me any (in fact, they usually make me laugh!). When I first quit drinking I read all the blogs and memoirs I could get my hands on, besides getting a sponsor and going to meetings. I enjoy hearing the bad along with the good. It makes sobriety all that much better, at least for me.

enchantedoak said...

Tell your story! For me, it will be like listening to a speaker tape in sections. What I was like is an invaluable part of my story, because it helps the newcomer identify.

Zano said...

Yes, yes, yes. Sharing is a two way street. We benefit from your experience...

Hope said...

Would love to hear it all.

Findon said...

Not a drunkalog, no. but the plain truth, simply spoken. The highs and lows. The feelings and thoughts. Don't leave anything out. It isn't a glamorous life we led back then, but to understand today, we have to be able to see the path behind us. I will enjoy everyday of it Mary. I'll catch up when I come back from the US of A

Syd said...

MC, I would be honored to read your story. I think that your honesty is something that shines through, along with your spirituality, in all that you write. I think that it would help the families to understand what happened because so many people are still feeling so much pain because a family member is actively drinking or sober but still very alcoholic.

Just Another Sober Guy said...

Sounds like a great idea! Would look forward to reading (hopefully) every installment as they come. We do need to remember where we come from and yes, the willingness and how it came ot be.

Patty said...

yes,yes,yes.

Pam said...

YES!!! do it.