I am really kind of afraid I am getting sick. I ran 5 miles yesterday and afterwards I was in so much pain I just thought I had perhaps chosen a route with too many hills. Today I am in so much pain I really wonder if I am getting sick. I am sitting on my sofa, wrapped in blankets, freezing, and it is not cold in here. Then I reflect on how bent I got about a couple of things last week and it kind of makes sense if I was slightly sick.
Last night my daughter and I went to one of my sponsee's house for an AA function. It was really wonderful. I got to sit in a room with a bunch of people who were talking about spiritual experiences. You know, talking about these things outside of "the rooms" is very different from listening to what gets shared at meetings. Not that there is anything wrong with how or what people share in meetings, but having interactive discussions with people just adds so much understanding of them and what they are actually saying.
Later we got to just be so silly, and laugh so much. What a joy it is to watch my daughter fit right into this group. Actually, age-wise, sobriety and natal, she fits in better than I do. What an awesome thing to see.
I am grateful to have a group that has some structure for getting together outside of the regular meeting. Granted, it is only one evening a month, and some special occasions, but it is still powerful. It is a great way to get to know people. We do also have breakfast at least once a week (which I don't always get to).
When I was new in AA, I was really encouraged to get to the "meeting after the meeting" and I am glad I was. I think if you only show up for the meeting, you will really not get a good feel for what we are about. And that holds true for people with years and decades of sobriety too.
Oh, and if no one has ever asked you out for coffee or breakfast or dinner or lunch or whatever, ask them. Sometimes, even though it would be very nice if someone would reach out to us, we have to be the ones to stick our hands out. Yes, even if we are the new ones.
And I just have to say that I am so glad that Pammie is back. Much Love to you my friend.
"Still you may say: 'But I will not have the benefit of contact with you who write this book.' We cannot be sure. God will determine that, so you must remember that your real reliance is always upon Him. He will show you how to create the fellowship you crave." -- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 164.