Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Strawberry Jam

I keep asking my son what he needs from "home". The only thing he has asked for is some strawberry jam - only if I have some, mind you. Well, this year I never did can anything, so I don't have any strawberry jam made. Yesterday I finally found some strawberries and made some strawberry jam for my son, and will mail it to Iraq.

I haven't heard from him for 9 days now. I am fighting that panic that I get.

My daughter is so addicted to meth and so dysfunctional. Last night I quietly let her know that I am aware she lost her job... she was pretending that she just got off work, but in reality got fired a week or two ago. I do not know what is going to happen to her or her daughters, my granddaughters.

I am praying a lot. On my knees. I know that it is all as it should be, it just doesn't feel too great right at this moment. So, I will put on my running gear and head on out to the gym to get on the treadmill. Once I hook myself up to my iPod, I tend to forget everything for 30 or 40 minutes while I run. It is a good deal. Then I will go to my job and put in an honest day of work.

"We constantly remind ourselves we are no longer running the show, humbly saying to ourselves many times each day 'Thy will be done.' We are then in much less danger of excitement, fear, anger, worry, self-pity, or foolish decisions." -- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 88

17 comments:

dAAve said...

MC, your kids keep your mind going everywhere. It makes me grateful I don't have to deal with those issues, but we all have our own issues, eh?

Scott W said...

We are all there, kneeling beside you.

kel said...

I will add your daughter to my prayers.

Shannon said...

MC there is nothing I can say to make you feel better. My sponsor and I were just talking about the fear we have for our kids, no matter how old they are, and we just hve to keep giving them to God- over and over and over again. sending prayers for you and your son, and your daughter, and your granddaughters

PS dont let your brain attack you! I needed that yesterday thanks MC

Karen B said...

I will pray for your daughter, this must be hard for you but you're a strong woman and I have faith in you. It's between her and God. Take care.

Diego said...

You are One of my favorite bloggers...Have a great day!....

Sober Chick said...

I too am praying for you, your son, daughter and grandbabies.

Tab said...

This is when we weren't just cyber buddies but friends who lived in the same city MC because all I want to do this moment is give you a hug.

Trudging said...

Boy, Meth is a fast and nasty addiction. I don't have any words of wisdom about either child except that God is in charge.

Carly said...

You and your kids are in my prayers.

Tab said...

Please stop by my blog before you get ready for bed tonight MC.
You were one of the people I thought about when I wrote it ~
Love Tab{{Hugs}}

Mary Christine said...

You guys have brought more than one tear to my eyes today. Thank you so much for the loving support. I really appreciate you all. I am really so blessed, not only with my sober blogging friends, but with my face 2 face sober friends and even some of my co-workers.

BigSkymAAck said...

Mary
I would like for you to do something for me. Put your right hand over your left shoulder. Now take your left hand and put it on your right shoulder......Now squeeze real hard for a long time. That is a hug from me. Now I will go do some praying for you and all your babies and grand babies.

Sober @ Sundown said...

I am sorry you are struggling with 2 really big situations with your kids. Hang in there, and know that we are thinking of you.

Diego said...

I'll say a prayer for your daughter and for you as well...I understand.....

Christine said...

oh Mary Christine how sad for you , your daughter and grandkids--

But don't lose hope, miracles do happen and you know that since you are one

you are doing what you can---praying, loving her and being honest with her

Designer Girl said...

Just keep doing what you're doing and being who you are. That will communicate more than words ever could to your daughter. I'm joining in with you and everyone else, and holding her up in prayer, and praying for your son's safety as well. ((((hugs))))