Thursday, September 04, 2008

Happy Heart

My yoga class was great last night. I left there without pain. That is an amazing thing for me. I slept all night, straight through, without getting up once. That is an amazing thing for me.

I feel happy this morning. I love when the joy starts coming back into my heart. I feel that it is coming back after a tough several weeks or month.

I have also been reading this journal I have found from my first couple of months of sobriety. It is amazing to read this. There are many things I have forgotten about. There are decisions I made back then that I have come to regret. Reading about it reminds me of the real reasons I made the decisions I did. I am thrilled to say that I realize I made the right decisions. I am amazed that I stayed sober through all of that. I was so new. I had no huge commitment to staying sober, and yet, time and time again, I would say that I wanted to be sober and I was grateful to be sober. Even though my life was crumbling around me.

God is so good to us.

9 comments:

AlkySeltzer said...

"I feel happy this morning. I love when the joy starts coming back into my heart."

And, MC, *I* love when ANYONE posts a sentence like that opener.

And I've been realizing lately (again) that yes, God IS so good to us. Glad you're feeling better. It shows (in your writing...)

Pam said...

I truly believe that God really loves alcoholics and addicts. He pours so much grace and mercy on us.

ws said...

glad to hear you are happy.

I can't imagine what it must be like to look back after so many years.

Your sentence "even though my life was crumbling around me" really touched me. I wouldn't say my life is crumbling but by many people's standards my life looks a lot worse today than it was a year ago. I know that isn't the case.

Banana Girl said...

After reading your posts from yesterday and today I wanted to let you know how much I appreciate your candor every single day. Retirement is a scary thing just like sobriety. After having been at it (retirement) for 15 years, and a hubby who has been at it for 5, I can honestly tell you there is nothing about or in it that cannot be handled with the help from above. LU. J.

Zanejabbers said...

God helps us get sober so we can go through the rough times ahead.
It is truly a MIRACLE.

Syd said...

Having the joy be in someone's heart is good. I am feeling more joyous today but realize that I need to get my humility back too.

Scott W said...

I think that with practice yoga will open your heart more and more.

Lou said...

I'm glad I saved all sorts of scraps from school, old cards, letters from parents & husband. Every time I want to spend a lazy day on Memory Lane they are there. It's true, you find so much you have forgotten.

Gwen R said...

It is really amazing how we stay sober. Such a miracle.

So great to see your comment MC. Thanks ~