I spoke with my sponsor yesterday and she suggested I go to meetings to see what I can bring to the meeting instead of what I can take away. Darn it! I knew that! She does understand what I am complaining about but says I have no other choice but to persevere. I knew that.
I went to a noon meeting yesterday. The good part? That a handsome young man I know from other meetings came in, joyous at seeing me, he ran across the room, kissed and hugged me. Yes, that was nice. The bad part? The rest of the meeting. Oh well. I caused a bit of a flap when I said I thought people who go in and out and drink when the rubber hits the road are "a dime a dozen," and I really don't care what they say. Oh, that was kind of fun.
I am going to go run this morning and then go in for a long day of work. I canceled every single after work activity this week. I am simply working too hard trying to meet my Friday deadline to do anything after the work day is over. Of course, yesterday it didn't end until 10 p.m. And after Friday? At least this deadline will be over and I will not have to read or write anything about suicide for a while.
Lets be kind to one another today, OK?
"Let brotherly love continue. Be not forgetful to entertain strangers: for thereby some have entertained angels unawares." Hebrews 13:1-2