Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Still...

I am going to stop writing about the death of my friend - after today.  OK?

I was feeling so bad about some of the conversations we had.  Wondering why I couldn't have been kinder.  Wondering why I am sometimes so very harsh.  Regretting.  

I finally got my land line phone disconnected.  Yesterday was the last day of that service.  So yesterday morning I decided to listen to my saved voice mails.  I have things saved for years, like my granddaughter's first day at pre-school.  And the younger one being coached to say "hi nana" by her mom, when she was just a baby.  I couldn't find a way to save them.  

But mixed in with these messages, totally forgotten by me, was a message from Russ that he left in May of this year.  Imagine my shock to hear his voice, which I always loved, saying, among other things, that I had been such a good friend to him, and he thanked me for my friendship.  He said he loved so many things about me, etc.  I felt yesterday, and I still do today, that he touched me yesterday and told me that it was OK.  

This morning I will go out and run.  Then I will get ready for work and go put in a good day's work for a good day's pay.  

13 comments:

Lou said...

He said good bye to you.

Cat said...

How wonderful that you were able to happen upon his voice, his message yesterday. What a god send.

Cat

Patty said...

Yeah, it's OK MC.

dAAve said...

There was a reason.

Pam said...

I say listen to it as often as you need to and write about it for as long as you want. You will know when it has settled into a nice memory instead of a painful one.

Trailboss said...

Isn't it wonderful how things can be just right at the perfect times? He said it's ok.

J-Online said...

How beautiful you were able to hear his voice again. I believe it was a sign from him and God saying "I'm ok."

Hope said...

This made me tear up.
What a wonderful gift to find on your voice mail.

Syd said...

I'm glad that you heard his voice. That happened for a reason.

AlkySeltzer said...

I'm TRULY sorry for your loss, Mary.
Please accept my condolences...

Now you can go to Texas and be with your friends who do so love you. Amen.
Be safe.

Gabriella Moonlight said...

It's always amazed me how those who have died before me manage to stay in touch with me. This was a god send indeed! Hope you're time in Texas is filled with hoots and hollers!

G

Scott W said...

I agree that it was not coincidental that his voice mail was still there.

raino said...

wow. how odd i was thinking while reading your post that you suddenly heard your friends voice on the machine again after forgetting about it for such a long time. strange eh. i think things happen for a reason.