Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Out of Sorts

I told my sponsor I was "out of sorts" last night. She said she had a bag of "licorice all sorts" and I was welcome to some. ha ha. I love licorice all sorts, and would eat the whole bag if I it were in front of me. But as it is, my sponsor is on the Western Slope of Colorado, and here I am, on the Front Range.

I went to a meeting I don't normally go to last night. It is funny, you get to see faces that have ceased showing up at your other meetings. In one case, I got to see a man who looks and acts just like a newcomer, but I knew back in the early 90s in my old home group. I have seen him a lot lately. He has never acknowledged that he remembers me, but then I haven't acknowledged remembering him either. I have always thought he was a scary guy. He doesn't talk about drinking or recovery, just wacky, frightening shit.

I need to get out and run and get to work. I feel utterly uninspired. I recall that after the last 2 triathlons, the week after the race has been hard. Anti-climax, tired, spent physically, and no immediate goal to focus on.

"Personally, I take the attitude that I intend never to drink again. This is somewhat different from saying, 'I will never drink again.' The latter attitude sometimes gets people in trouble because it is an undertaking on a personal basis to do what we alcoholics never could do. It is too much an act of will and leaves too little room for the idea that God will release us from the drink obsession provided we follow the AA program." -- As Bill Sees It, p. 16

11 comments:

DG - trudgingtheroad said...

>>>I feel utterly uninspired<<<

I like how you phrased that. I was feeling that way all weekend after returning from my trip. I rented a movie and watched half of it and slothed around for the weekend.

I'm no help I know ;)

dAAve said...

Never cared for licorice. But then, you didn't ask either.

It's OK to feel a bit uninspired about running etc...
Go to McDonald's because
YOU DESERVE A BREAK TODAY!!

Tab said...

Maybe it is time for some TLC time for yourself MC? Hope you find that little something you need to kick your spirits up a notch.Then again,
just "simmering" isn't a bad thing.
Big hugs..thanks for sharing~

Trudging said...

I like the out of sorts thing.

Sober Chick said...

Give yourself the gift of a Hot Shower or Bubble Bath. Let your muscles and soul embrace the natural refreshing water as it caresses your skin.

You deserve this (per Tab and me) and a Happy Meal (per Dave).

Maui said...

Hey Just stopped by kinda by accident. Congrats on 22 years. That's big shit.

Karen B said...

I was feeling the same way(out of sorts) yesterday and I felt better after going to a meeting last night. I lounged by the pool all day yesterday.

Motorcycle Mike - Sober Biker said...

Sorry I haven't been around to congratulate you on the Tri.

Sounds like an absolute wonderful time with family and friends. Way to go......

I also really liked your write up about the dude who was struck drunk...

This disease scares the shit out of me too.

Anyway, thanks for being....

Mike

Scott W said...

"...just wacky, frightening shit." We have some of those too. What they do for me is give me even more gratitude, that 'by the grace of God' stuff. Those uninspired times don't last, maybe by now it is totally gone. Thanks for sharing, MC.

Gwen said...

Thanks for sharing MC~

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