OK, I will just tell y'all. I am not feeling so hot today.
Last night instead of going to church as I usually do on Saturday night, I drove to Boulder to meet someone for coffee. It was pouring rain, and we walked the Pearl Street Mall, which sounds kind of moody and romantic, but it was wet and uncomfortable, and besides, I really dislike Boulder. So I got up and went to church this morning instead of my mainstay meeting - my home group, my peeps. If I had known how much I would miss my meeting, I would not have done it.
However, I went to a noon meeting - at the same place where I usually attend 6:30 a.m. meetings. I only knew one person in the room at the noon meeting. There was a new woman there. First meeting ever! How freaking cool is that! I had an experience which I really must share although it may be one of those things that can't be put into words.
The chair asked a guy with 3 days to read something from the big book. (In Denver we don't always read Chapter 5.) He picked a portion of "Bill's Story" - which I will quote part of below. When he got to the part about Ebby asking Bill to pick his own conception of God, I got chills all over and tears in my eyes. I realized that that simple question, that Ebby probably just pulled out of his ass, was the bedrock upon which AA was built!
Later in the meeting the new lady, brand new, never been to a meeting before, shared. She said that she knew we talked about God in AA and that is what kept her away. She said that she never even knew that she could chose her own conception of God and now she knew that she could be an AA member!!! Wow!
I am glad I went to that meeting. I got to talk to the new lady after the meeting and give her my phone number. I also met another woman with 4 and a half years of sobriety, we chatted for a while, which was nice.
I also ran 2 miles this morning - which brings my mileage for August to 40 miles! And I still have four more days!
And my daughter rode her new motorcycle over this morning. She is so cute. I know I probably shouldn't, but here is her picture. She has a light blue leather jacket. I just think she is so cute!
I tried to post a picture of myself here, but it didn't work (twice), so I will maintain my anonymity for one more day.
"My friend suggested what then seemed a novel idea. He said, "Why don't you choose your own conception of God?" That statement hit me hard. It melted the icey intellectual mountain in whose shadow I had lived and shivered many years. I stood in the sunlight at last." -- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 12