That's an old song by Donovan. Sunshine came softly through my window today... could have tripped out easy, but I've changed my ways... Love that song!
Sunshine did come softly through my window today. It is a sunny day. I am about to put my running skirt on and head out the door for my "make or break" 17 mile run. If I can do this, I will continue to train for a marathon. If I cannot do it, I will joyfully decide to run a half marathon in June. Which will mean that I can cut back drastically on my mileage. This makes it sound like the decision is already made - but it isn't.
Yesterday my neighbor and I took our annual trip to the garden shop. I bought the above mandevila for my front porch. I don't know the first thing about mandevilas, but it sure is pretty. Hopefully it will thrive.
I spent a lot of time in fellowship with AA folks yesterday. It was good. I went out for breakfast after the meeting. I went to an AA function at a fellow member's home - where I spent hours on a deck, looking at a spectacular view of the mountains, sitting with friends and laughing so much I got a headache. I brought a strawberry pie, and people literally lined up for a piece, as I doled it out. Those who didn't get a piece complained loudly. My pies are getting a reputation!
I talked about my nightmares a lot yesterday. And do you know what? Last night I did not have one. I slept like a baby all night long. Some people are mighty uncomfortable with me, as a person with long-term sobriety, talking about problems like I was a newcomer or something! Am I here for them? No. I am here for me. Sorry. I do not go to meetings for anyone but me. If I should help someone while I am there, that is great. But I have not reached the pinnacle, the mountain-top, where I no longer am in any danger of drinking - I am an alcoholic. And if there is one thing I have learned from 23 and 3/4 years in Alcoholics Anonymous - it is that we are never cured. We are never immune. I am just as much a drunk as I was when I hit the doors. By the Grace of a Loving God, I get to live a sober and most of the time happy life today. And when I have a problem? I am going to talk about it.
Have a blessed sober day today. XXXOOO!!!