Thursday, September 03, 2009

Thursday Night on the Back Deck

I am sitting outside writing this. It is a perfectly beautiful evening, and I couldn't see a good reason to sit inside while I could sit outside. The dogs next door might be a compelling reason, but I am trying to ignore their endless yapping. The crickets are wonderful. I love to listen to them.

Thank God for these nights when I don't need air conditioning on and I can be serenaded by crickets all the night long.

This morning my boss came to my office door. He had a piece of pink paper, about 8.5"X4" in his hand. He said "Hi Mary, how are you?" I said "You are my boss, you are standing in my doorway with a pink slip in your hand, why don't YOU tell ME how I am!" He laughed and then told me that I needed to get ahold of my assistant who was off today. Yes, I needed to make THAT call. Her position has been abolished and I got to tell her that. That sounds sarcastic, it really isn't. I closed my office door and prayed for a while before I called her. And it was not pretty. She, like many of us, really needs her job, and this is a terrible blow to her.

I don't know who all got the word today, but as far as I know, I am not one of them. For now.

It is a sad place.

It was a long day. And a long week. And it is not over yet.

I am extremely grateful to be going to our state convention this weekend. Even though I didn't even want to go. I think it will be perfect for this weekend. My daughter is so excited she can barely stand it. It is awesome to witness that and be able to share that with her. What a deal.

We have been planning our trip to Texas next year. My sponsor was able to get a room in the same hotel I am booked at. What a thrill. We are planning our drive... we have decided we all want to take a road trip. Oh! I love road trips! (and I HATE flying)

I will pray for the people who have lost their jobs tonight. I will go to church tomorrow morning and pray some more. And then I will go and face another day at this place I have loved for 15 years.

Thanks for listening to all of this....

Let's keep staying sober together, OK?

11 comments:

garden-variety drunk said...

sounds like a tough time at work. glad to hear that you have a great weekend to look forward to and a nice evening to unwind.

Ed G. said...

I am sorry - I have been there, it wasn't neat, I lived through it with little grace or balance, it will be different later.

Blessings on your time at the convention...

Pam said...

Mary, just a thought...You could write a beautiful recommendation letter for your assistant,send it to her with a note telling her to keep it with her resume. You may of done this of course, but it just popped into my head.
I'm glad you have a fun weekend planned. Sobriety excitement in our adult children is AWESOME !!!!!

dAAve said...

Crickets, layoffs, conventions and family.

Life.

Syd said...

That is a tough thing. I've had to do that before. Most of my 16 staff members are supported by grants. Some have not been long term. Luckily, they were able to move to another position in the institute and not completely be let go. But I have felt the loss keenly when a person leaves. I can only imagine the sadness and anxiety that being out of work brings. I'm glad too that you are going to the convention.

Scott W said...

I had to let someone go once. He laughed at me because I was so nervous. I am sure I had a resentment about that for a while.

It's cool here this morning and I can hear the rain and the clicking of the keys on the keyboard. Nice.

Lou said...

At least everyone will know one way or the other about their job. The waiting would bother me a lot.

Enjoy this week end, and try to put the stress of the last couple weeks away for awhile.

Trudging said...

Mary, sorry I did not get back with you sooner

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Susan DeAngelis said...

Sounds like a beautiful evening and a beautiful prayer...

Hugs,
Sue

God Is said...

That is tough stuff...We are indeed in very difficult times. Step II to the rescue.