Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Time to go to work

I had a migraine for 2 days, and I am afraid it is trying to turn into 3. I have that "walking on eggshells" feeling that can easily turn back into this sickening headache. It has been a long time since I have had a three day migraine, but I used to have them all the time.

Yesterday I stayed at work until I was done giving a presentation to the Medical Executive Committee. I really need to honor my commitment to give the best I can at work. So many people are so disheartened, they have basically thrown in the towel. I am not going to do that. Until they usher me out the door, I will honor my commitment to give my best effort for my paycheck.

So, I made a plan with my daughter to attend our state convention this weekend. I was unsure as to whether I should attend. I don't really like the big time AA events or the big time AA speakers. I spent too much time with them when I was married to my last husband and came to really dislike them. In Catholicism, we believe we are each called by God to do certain things, and I have felt that I am "called" to just sit at regular old AA meetings and share in a regular way about regular things, not about "big-time" things at "big-time" meetings. I can sit and read the big book with regular old stinky drunks (sorry to the beautiful women I sponsor - you are not in any way stinky, and I love you) and be at the regular meetings when everyone else is off at the big-time events.

I can also acknowledge that thousands of people are helped by those big time speakers - And if I say any more it will get ugly... so I am done!

Have a sweet sober day y'all.

13 comments:

dAAve said...

I hear ya.
But (so far) I love every meeting I go to --- big, small, speaker or whatever. I don't think of the "big time" speakers as big time speakers. I think of them as a sober drunk, just like me.

Syd said...

I enjoy going to all kinds of programs. I have an IPod loaded with big time AA speakers. I have a few circuit Al-Anon speakers on there too. I get something from every one. And some times I hear how I don't want to be. That's also good.

Gin said...

I love the attitude that you have about your job and honoring your commitment until they usher you out the door. That's not something that many people can do.

Susan DeAngelis said...

I'm so sorry about your migraine mary christine...

I have suffered from them in the past and know how painful they can be.

Hugs,
Sue

garden-variety drunk said...

I understand that sentiment, as well as have been inspired and helped some big circuit speakers. mostly i enjoy them on my ipod while traveling even if i was less impressed by them in person. we all have ways to be of service in aa - i love that about our program

Lou said...

Wonderful to be going with your daughter!

Ed G. said...

Mary - so very sorry about your prolonged migraine. I wish you relief soon...

I also reached a place a few years ago where I was "done" with celebrity speakers, then, something changed and now I'm the first in line thanking them and passing their talks around. Just my experience...

Blessings and aloha...

Tall Kay said...

Sounds like a wonderful mother-daughter 'special time' weekend! What an honor that she wants to go with you!

kelly said...
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Scott W said...

I love AA, plenty of stuff for everyone!

I spoke with the guy upstairs about your headache.

Now, about that deleted comment above. hehehe (But I am curious!)

Mary Christine said...

Scott, it was a semi-arrogant comment, linking to an advertisement for a treatment center. I am not going to advertise treatment centers here, so i deleted it.

Messy Girl said...

Hope your head feels better soon.

I hate big-time speakers.

Then again, I can't stand AA either.

Working on that.

Pam said...

I don't like it when your head hurts.
I like the back of the room, the front of the room and the speaker spot....I'm fickled like that.