Sunday, May 13, 2012
I was up all night, just could not sleep. Listened to John Irving's Last Night in Twisted River. Amazed to find a description of a car accident on Berthoud Pass that was nearly identical to the one I was in. Only thankfully, when the car in which I rode veered totally out of control at a great speed, it miraculously did not hit another car. In the book, the jackass car hits another car, causing two fatalities.
Finally fell asleep at 4, and slept until 8. What a luxury to wake to sunlight! My daughter called and surprised me with good news. We will all be together today. She will be with her children. I will be with my children and grandchildren. There were years that were not like this. I am grateful for this blessing but mindful of what a painful day this can be for many.
This is my 41st Mothers Day without my mother. That is over two times the number of Mothers Days I spent with her.
I do wish I could see her and tell her I love her.
But I do get to spend the day with my kids and I will focus on that instead.