Thursday, August 16, 2007

No!

I don't want to get out of bed! But I will.

I am still suffering from incredible fatigue and lethargy. I decided yesterday that I have to go back to some old basics from early recovery: fake it till you make it. Act as if. Suit up and show up. I need to just put one foot in front of the other and go forward with each day because I can't stop living just because I am exhausted. I am taking care of my body and my mind, and I am sure they will both catch up eventually and I will be my old energetic self.

My sponsor said the nervous strain is out of my voice for the first time in over a year. That nervous strain must have worn me totally out! I don't recall ever being this tired.

"AA is not a plan for recovery that can be finished and done with. It is a way of life, and the challenge contained in its principles is great enough to keep any human being striving for as long as he lives. We do not, cannot, out-grow this plan." -- Alcoholics Anonymous (3rd ed.), p. 311

9 comments:

Scott W said...

I take it you are talking about this in meetings. It would serve someone well to hear the support behind "fake it until you make it". Consider this recess in the school of life. Time to take it easy and just be.

Christine said...

sometimes pushing hru is not the best way to move thru a time like this---GC talked about rest this morning, didja see it?

dAAve said...

Just another episode in the Total Entertainment Package that we call life.

Syd said...

Hang in there. Get rest and you'll feel better. Some days I just need to shut down and stay at home.

lushgurl said...

I hope that today you have taken the day off to rest, and I am glad that you had the chance to wrap your arms around your son once again.
On the days when I feel kinda blah, I do just what you spoke of, fake it til I make it- at least being tired won't kill us the way drinking over being tired will!
Love to you today Mary Christine

Pam said...

hey sweet pea...it sounds so much like the exhaustion after stress..ya know?
Just go with it, and rest as much as you can....it's perfectly OK to do that "they say".

Motorcycle Mike - Sober Biker said...

Thanks for sharing your life with us. You are an inspiration, believe it....

The Maven said...

I certainly hope you feel better soon!

It's funny... Every time I hit a mental or emotional revelation, I find myself completely and utterly exhausted, too. Funny how we don't always know the level of stress we're carrying with us every day, no?

Have a beautiful 24 hours.

Scott said...

luv the pic, I hope you are able to get some good rest. Perhpas a day of pampering is in order? or some shopping?