He used to say that we (alcoholics) call ourselves perfectionists, which is pretty funny because we seldom do anything right, let alone perfect. I thought about that. I would hop on board those things when I was new... say I was a "people-pleaser" or a "perfectionist" when I really hadn't given much thought to how few people I ever pleased or how little I got perfect.
Tonight I was talking with someone who suggested that I am a perfectionist. Oh, but I beg to differ! I like to do things well. I don't see any reason not to. If you are going to spend time doing something, why not do it well? I take pride in my work and my hobbies. When I knit, I don't spend hundreds of dollars to create something that no one wants to look at! I want it to be a thing of beauty! When I do my job, I want to do it well, and I make every effort to do so.
When I was drinking, I seldom finished anything. If I did, it was a sloppy job and I would sum it up by saying it was "good enough." I think it is incumbent upon us as sober people to change our ways and give things our very best effort.
God must have spared me from an alcoholic death for some good purpose! I might as well not screw up what he saved me for. (He didn't communicate to me what exactly it was, so I try to do everything that is put in my path to the best of my ability.)
And since it is bedtime, I think I will I thank Him for another blessed day of sobriety... and tomorrow morning I will ask Him for another one. It's a good thing. Gratitude is an action...