This is my favorite of the four paintings I did last week. This morning I woke up with a migraine. Then I got into my car to drive to the meeting at 6:30, and it didn't work right and the check engine light came on, so I drove straight back into my driveway and went back to bed for 2 and a half hours. Then I called the VW dealer and had the car towed away.
The happy thing is that I am home. I have a warranty on my car - and roadside service, so it didn't cost me anything to tow it. I have a bed that is mine, and I was able to place myself on it and sleep. I will find out later what is wrong with my car, but I suspect it is a burnt out ignition coil - which is not hard to fix and is covered by warranty. I asked them to do a couple of more things since it is going to be up on a rack. And unless there is something crazy going on, I can pay for it.
This was not always the way it was for me.
I just spoke with my sponsor for a while. She reminded me of where I have been and where I am today. It is far too easy to get weirded out after having spent a while in a world that is about nothing but money, stuff, and who you know. It's about how fabulous everything is, and not about how much you love your friends and family. My world is not like that.
I am so grateful for this life of sobriety. It is so good I just want to weep.
And in case you are new to sobriety, let me hasten to assure you that it did not get like this overnight. There was a lot of stuff to go through to get here. I am so grateful for all of it. The journey is just awesome every step of the way if you can just enjoy it for what it is.
The happy thing is that I am home. I have a warranty on my car - and roadside service, so it didn't cost me anything to tow it. I have a bed that is mine, and I was able to place myself on it and sleep. I will find out later what is wrong with my car, but I suspect it is a burnt out ignition coil - which is not hard to fix and is covered by warranty. I asked them to do a couple of more things since it is going to be up on a rack. And unless there is something crazy going on, I can pay for it.
This was not always the way it was for me.
I just spoke with my sponsor for a while. She reminded me of where I have been and where I am today. It is far too easy to get weirded out after having spent a while in a world that is about nothing but money, stuff, and who you know. It's about how fabulous everything is, and not about how much you love your friends and family. My world is not like that.
I am so grateful for this life of sobriety. It is so good I just want to weep.
And in case you are new to sobriety, let me hasten to assure you that it did not get like this overnight. There was a lot of stuff to go through to get here. I am so grateful for all of it. The journey is just awesome every step of the way if you can just enjoy it for what it is.
19 comments:
Hi mary. Thanks for your last paragraph. I needed the reminder that when life feels absolutely awful there is something better on the other side. Glad you enjoyed your trip to the Hamptons and had a safe trip home.
Nice art...
Glad you have happy things today and were willing and able to follow the road to get here from there. As we both know, not all are so fortunate.
Blessings, aloha, and improved health..
Good job, with the painting and with your life! Both have great depth!
I think any place sober is better than any place stoned. So, you're in a fine place, you have enough money, you probably have enough stuff and you hang on the blog with quality people. I think you might be blessed.
Isn't it great when you can take care of the problems of life because of the foundation that you have laid down?
Hey Mary - that is a lovely rose.
Your post made me think of a print I ordered for myself a while ago - it's at www.storypeople.com and if you click on things to buy and then click on prints it's under the F's - called Fighting Chance. It's message fits right in with your post.
I'm at my folks right now. Every time I come home I get a bit blindsided by how different my life is in recovery. Catches me offguard every time.
Hi Mary.
Life is good. I'm 14 days sober and am very grateful for all the benefits I'm now experiencing. It's been tough at times but well worth it.
Great post.
Brett.
I like your picture!
And yes, you had to work for your life today. The hard lessons are the ones that stick.
cool painting.
The painting is of your favorite flower--the rose. I'm glad that you are in a good place--spiritually, emotionally and hopefully physically (minus the migraine). All is well.
Mary, that comment from Brett (No More Booze) really got to me. 14 days sober, and he is reading what I consider to be just what he needed to read--your final paragraph.
What a beautiful connection God has pieced together here!
I hope Brett continues to read you...I know I will.
I love your painting darlin'!
Dave pointed out to me that you, Scott and I posted our original art tonight!
Great minds and all.
I'm greatful that you are out there with me taking this sober journey.
Welcome home!
A beautiful painting!
PG
My favorite color is red, and I really like your rose, it's one of those BIG ones?
Migraine , migraine, stay away....
The pink rose is beautiful! Will you hang that in your house? or do you sell your art like Scott W?
And for what it is today...life is Good. It shows on you :)
Lovely painting.
Mary LA
Love the painting! Art is becoming the theme around here. Maybe I can post some of my children's art because I might scare you off with mine!
was posting my last comment from my blackberry...meant to comment on the migraine, hope you're feeling better. Also, got a good laugh about your hair statement in the previous post, my hair is soooo straight when I'm in New York because of the lack of humidity, apparently you need to experience Florida humidity to understand that New York is hardly humid. Hope you had a great day and are feeling better.
Made me weep.
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