So, our Pammie is likely moving on from blogging. Scott W. has left, as has Lou. These are all people who really blog. That leaves me and Daave. If you wonder why your name is not there, it may be because you have come along more recently or because you don't post every single day. We have posted every single day, come hell or high water. Most bloggers come and go. Most rather rapidly. I have lost my patience with most of it.
I think I titled a post "It hurts to blog" years ago. Years before I was ready to let go of it. It really does hurt to blog. If you haven't experienced that, keep coming back. When I was new to this realm, one of our midst had lost his job due to blogging. He comes back from time to time, always changing his name, and leaving as he gets found out. I wonder why he is so "paranoid," but I have never lost a job due to blogging. But I think I have lost friends. I have unintentionally notified family of things I hadn't intended to tell my family. I have notified the world of things I should have kept to myself. I have been stalked by a creepy man most of you think is just a wonderful old man.
A couple of years ago I started editing what I said a lot more. I think the quality of my blog started suffering then. But I still was in love with so many people who were blogging. The fellowship was what kept me going.
I am very tired of honestly sharing for all the world to read. I wanted to do that for the still suffering alcoholic. That was my intended audience. But I have far exceeded that audience. I get tired of taking the pot shots from stray readers who come by and feel the need to correct me or direct me or scold me. I get really tired of the rehabs and treatment centers who want to hijack my blog for their purposes - to make money. (I have made not one cent from this blog - which by blogging standards has been a successful blog. I have not achieved fame or fortune. I have been anonymous - except as people who know me have figured out who I am. )
To clarify: I am not writing this to solicit attention, I am just processing. I think I have probably made my decision. But I don't want to be hasty about it. So I am going to think about it.