Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Harbinger of Hope

I heard a bird singing this morning! Some of you from warmer climes may not know how special that is to a person who has endured month after month of mornings in the icy grip of silence.

At the meeting yesterday that I dragged myself out of bed to go to... I was waiting in the conference room for people to start showing up. I had my head in my hands - a migraine pose - thinking I was alone. I looked up and saw our very handsome director of psychology. I tried to quickly cover by saying "Hi! How are you?" He, being a seasoned clinician, said "better than you." I told him I had a migraine and I would have taken a sick day if not for that meeting. He said something so out of character for him - "I would have killed you if here weren't here." It was so painful to schedule that meeting and he was basically forced (by me) to be there. Thank God I was there. And thank God I could leave after it was over.

And the migraine persists. I am not going to work today either. I hate calling in sick. I did it far too many times in my drinking days. I still feel guilty about it. I second-guess whether I am really sick enough to stay home.

It is the first time I have called my new boss to tell him I am sick and not coming to work.

The bright side is: I am sober, I am not hungover. I have not been hungover for a very long time. I have not taken sick leave for anything other than natural sickness for a very very long time. I have plenty of paid sick leave accrued. I have a good book to read. The sun is going to be shining today, so it will shine on my bed as I sleep which will be heavenly. And I heard a bird sing this morning!

10 comments:

Garnet said...
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Garnet said...

The doctor/rescuer part of me is bursting with migraine remedy advice. I'm just going to note that and move along. Migraines suck. Hope you have a good rest day.

Patty said...

Hope you feel better, Mary and just the mention of it(migraine) makes me hope I don't get one now(sorry). Migraines are new to me and yes, they suck!
Have you ever tried books on CD? I get them out of the library and download them on my i-pod, pretty cool.

Carverlane said...

Sending good thoughts your way, MC!

My daffodils bloomed this week.

Kim from sAn Antonio

dAAve said...

I still think that I never need second-guess myself if I have done the right thing.
I think you're doing the right things.

Ed G. said...

Glad you're taking care of yourself - I wish you healing and happiness.

Blessings and aloha...

Syd said...

The birds were singing this past weekend. I hope that you do stay home until you feel better. I think about those people who don't have sick days. I am glad that I will have many left over when I get close to retiring and can donate them to other staff.

drybottomgirl said...

Sorry to hear you still have your migraine. I've had them since I was 17. Staying home is the right thing. Sometimes it's nice to bury down in the comfort of your bed and peek at the sun. It's like chocolate and salt at the same time! Hope relief comes soon!

Hope said...

Oh that little bird's song is truly a harbinger of hope. The other day here I heard a chickadee sing it's "Spring's coming" chirupp instead of the usual chickadee-dee-dee. I stopped walking and just smiled at the sound.

I hope your migraine is gone soon.

Pam said...

I am wishing you a quiet day and Dr. Handsome a day full of obnoxious loud talkers.

PS: word verification-momeweek