Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Making Preparations...

For a trip. I actually bought a pair of flat shoes! Flat shoes! What? Have I surrendered to age? Yesterday while boss was in my office, I pulled one shoe off, took a ruler out of my desk drawer, measured the heel, and declared "No wonder these things hurt - three and a half inch heels!" He said "I know they would hurt me." But they are red. So, on my lunch I went and purchased the above flat shoes. But flat shoes don't make your legs look pretty.

I got nine hours of sleep last night. I feel a lot better today.

You know, there are things you just shouldn't write about on a blog. Some things because they are too personal. Some things because they are about other people and you don't have the right to. Some things because you will get "input" you don't need. Some things because you shouldn't "process" in public.

I am trying to "process" some stuff that I really shouldn't do in public. So I get cryptic here. Yesterday I wrote a post early in the morning that was cryptic. It was misunderstood by a reader and the person left a comment that was so mean spirited it really stunned me. I deleted the entire post - which I have never ever done before. And then I replaced it with the ugly thing I left in its place. It looks like a scar to me.

Oh, who cares? I do.

So back to being me.

I am more grateful than words can say for the grace of God, evidence abounds:
  • I am alive
  • I am sober
  • I am packing for a trip to Las Vegas to attend the wedding of my only Son!
  • Lunch breaks can involve shoe shopping
  • My boss doesn't fire me for taking off my shoe in the middle of a meeting and measuring the heel
  • My daughter says the new piercing on her FACE will only leave a small scar if she ever decides to remove the hardware from her FACE
  • Birds are singing outside and the hard cold intractable winter is over
  • I have a safe new car to drive - and it is a Toyota.
Life is good.

8 comments:

Kim A. said...

I worried yesterday that my comment to your post was just not appropriate. It was sent with love and only the best of hoping that you are kind to yourself so I'm glad I wasn't the offender (I hope.) I would never, ever intentionally do anything to hurt. I am sorry someone did. Have a safe, wonderful, kodak-moment filled trip ♥♥

namaste

Syd said...

I don't understand the mean spirited stuff either. I found a mean comment under my door at work with a copy from my blog. I suppose now my anonymity is blown. But I am not going to worry about it. I will not succumb to fear and resentment. Have a great trip. Those shorter flat shoes will make your feet smile I'm sure.

dAAve said...

I rarely include personal stuff, certainly nothing that would hurt another and I try not to offend. You've taught me to share my experience.

Ed G. said...

So sorry you had to deal with negativity anywhere in your life. My experience in AA is that we generally leave no good, kind or well-intentioned effort unpunished. Amazing, but it's my experience.

I've learned that I can still grow and that, in the end, it's all about my relationship with God anyway.

I'm grateful you blog and, whatever you share of your life, I'm grateful for that as well.

Blessings and aloha...

chitowngreg said...

Life is good, no matter what happens! Enjoy the wedding and your stay in Vegas!

drybottomgirl said...

I love the red bag! Think of Audrey Hepburn when you wear flats, chic, stylish and smart. Negativity will always be present but it cannot outshine the awesome event that is happening in your life..your son's wedding! Bottle that feeling of joy and excitement and take it wherever you go and release it's happiness over and over.....

Anonymous said...

Hi, I'm new to your blog but I'm really enjoying reading it. Your outlook is inspiring and makes me think that yes, life can be good.

Pam said...

Remember that what happens in Vegas.....