Thursday, May 27, 2010

Back with so little...

I have wanted to write this post for days, but haven't had enough time. I haven't been able to fully form the thoughts. I still haven't really got them fleshed out. So, as I have a thousand times - and that is no exaggeration - I sit down to write something, not sure what it is that I am trying to say, and not sure how to say it. And that is why I love to blog.

I want to say I miss you all, but most of "you all" who I miss don't blog any more. I am sad about that. There are those who remain and I appreciate you, I really do, but as you know, you are few. There are those who are new and there are some of you who I truly appreciate. I have written to some of you in my absence.

I miss writing. I love writing. Some "real" writer, who I know I should cite - but I can't remember who said it, said, "how will I know what I think if I don't write?" I have felt somewhat lost these seven or eight days without writing. Many times over these days I have thought "I will blog about that!" "I will put a picture of that on my blog!" just like the way you think of things you would like to tell your recently deceased friend. It felt like a death in many ways.

I have a four day weekend starting tomorrow. I am grateful for it, including the furlough day. Yes, I am tired enough to be grateful for a day off without pay. I have not a whole lot planned. I spent the afternoon today with a sober friend who fixed my sprinkler system (and then I wrote him a big check - yikes!) Then I had dinner with my dear sponsee who I love so much. Tomorrow I will go to a meeting, then to church, then for a four mile run... then who knows? I might write a more cheerful blog post.

I am not real sure I have a whole lot to offer right now, but with your indulgence, I think I would like to write again... and I would be very grateful for your readership... and your comments. Really. You have no idea how much your kind comments mean. I had no idea how many "anonymous" readers were reading my blog - I wish you would say hello every now and then.

Thank you, and love,
xoxoxox,
MC

25 comments:

Susie said...

Hello Mary Christine - I am SO glad you want to blog again. I am nine months sober and have been reading your posts daily for seven or eight of those months. You are a part of my daily readings along with Each Day A New Beginning, Daily Reflections and Today's Gift. Your writing comforts me and I love your "old school" approach, your no-nonsense attitude, and your profound sense of gratitude. If you will write, I will drop in and say hello more often. Welcome back!

Mike Golch said...

I always enjoy reading you posting.I am sorry that I am so lax at commenting.I hope that you continue to write again as well.I think it is easier for me because my blog(s) travel all over the place.what ever whim that takes me there.I found it quite hard to just maintaine a blog of my soberiety.

Hope said...

I have missed your blog posts and am glad you are writing again.

janjanmom said...

( : Welcome back!

Saranne said...

So very glad to see you back! OX

marie said...

Welcome back! I need to add you to my list again!

Mary LA said...

This is the highlight of my week! I am so pleased to see you back again and look forward to reading you. It seems to me you are read and appreciated by far more peole than you realise.

shadowlands said...

Welcome back Mary Christine! now i will get to see some nice flower shots again. I left too, managed about three days but still commented on others posts so hardly a major vacation ha-ha.

Syd said...

I'm glad that you are writing again. It made me smile to see this posting. Today is my last "official" day at work. I hope to have a good weekend and I wish you the same. Welcome back my friend!

SerenitySeeker said...

So Glad you are back...I have followed you for a few years now and I too love your "By the Book Style". I have been sober for 20 years and pine for the old days when the program was presented with no nonsense. Political correctness has it's place but my take on it all is that we need to tell it like it really is and not be afraid of offending the person that struggles with the higher power part of the program. A,B,and C of How it Works is how it works for me!

Trailboss said...

We never know how many lives our posts touch when we blog. I have enjoyed your blogging and am happy you are back. I too, mourn for So, Pammie & especially Lou. She and I have so very much in common. We should do what makes us feel better, whether it is to blog or not. I have cut my posts way back ever since Annie (my dog) died last September. I just needed the break. Welcome back!

SusanB said...

I am one of those "anonymous" readers. Your blog is one of the first ones I read each day. Glad you are back!

Anonymous said...

So happy to see you back online when I checked this morning, Mary Christine. I've been reading and enjoying your blog for several years now. Sorry I've not been commenting and will promise to start doing so more often. It must be tough to "put yourself out there" so openly and honestly and not get much feedback. I share your thinking about "back to basics" and "let's not louse this thing up." You always have encouraging words for newcomers as well as those of us with a lot of time who never want to get complacent. I feel you are a friend in AA whom I haven't met yet but care very much about. God bless you!!!
Another grateful alcoholic, Ann

Anonymous said...

Thank you, thank you, thank you....SO HAPPY I checked this morning to see that you are back....I start each work day reading your blog, it helps put me in a great frame of mind, a SOBER frame of mind and reminds me to practise these principles in all my affairs!

AnyEdge said...

Thanks for returning! I missed you. But thanks for stopping by infactorium while you were gone.

Peppermint Patty said...

I just "found" you on blog spot. I'm sure I could use your insight as I am married to an alcoholic (see my blog and a few of my most recent posts) and are in the process of separation.

God bless you and your fight/desire to stay sober! :)

Andrew said...

Hello! I have been following you for a while now and can't remember if I ever left a comment.

Just so you know I do appreciate your writing about recovery and your day to day life. I could learn a lot from you.

Carol said...

I, also, am surprised that I have so much to say once I start writing. Glad to see you back.

dAAve said...

Is that really you?

LOL

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

I read, and appreciate what you have to say :)

MarilynAnn said...
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Anonymous said...

Ooops. I forgot to switch my log in ID to anon. I thought if I deleted it would delete everything but it only deleted the text not the post.

MC if you are able to delete my whole post I would be most grateful.
Anon/MA

Anonymous said...

Oh! now it says the whole thing has been deleted. Sorry about all the messing about.

kel said...

Yay! Welcome back, I have missed reading you each morning.

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