Thursday, June 17, 2010

Tiny Things

Tiny hand-knit hat and booties for baby. I love knitting this stuff. I love being a grandmother. I am not a good one in the respect that I am not sitting at home at all times being grandmotherly. I am not the most patient with small children. But, boy, do I ever love them. And they know it.

I am grateful to have these people in my life today. It wasn't always so.

Alcoholism causes a lot of damage - to a lot of people.

Whenever I hear someone say they are grateful to be an alcoholic I think "you must not have children." I am more grateful than words can say that I am sober. But I am not grateful for the damage I have done to my family. I am not grateful for the genetics that I get to watch play out. It is such a painful thing this alcoholism.

And now I am going to go to bed. I will read for a while and then I will fall asleep while it is just getting dark. I was up at 4 and out running this morning. I worked all day and I am tired. It was a good day. A very good day.

God is so good to me. Good to us.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Beautiful. How clever you are to be able to knit.

Patty said...

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Mary}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Carrie Burtt said...

Being a grandparent is such an awesome thing. The love that you feel for them is so emmense!! You are such an inspiration and I love reading your posts. I hope you have a great weekend. :-)

Syd said...

Those are really cute little things for the baby. I am glad that you are sober. And yes, alcoholism does so much damage to so many.

Kathy Lynne said...

I look forward to Grandmother duty but hopefully not in a way that pressures my kids....my daughter has already informed me no kids..but she's 21...I agree with you about the damage we have done to our families but there are plenty of people who are not alcoholic who damage their families and good. when(and its by no means always) I feel gratitude for being an alcoholic, I guess its only in the sense that I was given a way of life that I may never have encountered had I not been brought to my knees. And my children are better off for it now...maybe that just means I'm grateful for AA...