Thursday, September 09, 2010

Sober Day

I am still sick. In fact, sicker than yesterday. I don't know how I am going to possibly go forward with my training - I was supposed to run 6 miles today - and Eighteen miles on Saturday. I have an e-mail out to my coachie to find out what the heck I am going to do.

I had a sober day in spite of my sickness. I had some free time at lunch time today and decided to go to a noon meeting. I haven't been to one of those for a couple of years. It was a great meeting and I am so glad I went. I think I shall try to get back to that meeting.

One of my sponsees, the one who has been with me for many years and is someone very very dear to me, called and wanted to have dinner tonight. Even though all I wanted in the world was to go home and go to bed after work, I went and had dinner with her. We both ate "adult macaroni and cheese" Jeez Louise. Gross. But tasty. She made me cry when she talked about being with her dad when he died.... which is now 5 years ago, I believe. I remember when that was going on and I told her she needed to be with him - she didn't want to go. She wasn't getting along with her sister, she was freaked out by her dad's sickness, etc. But she went. And she stayed. And now, that is one of the most meaningful experiences of her sobriety.

Just like it was for me. I got to be with my dad as he was dying too. It was definitely one of the best things I have been able to do as a sober woman. Some of you will understand and some of you will think that is just nutty, that's OK.

I am now going to bed. Even though my across-the-street neighbor is getting a new roof and they are not done yet. That is a noisy endeavor. It is dark - they really need to stop all that pounding.

Enough of this stream of consciousness out of me!

I hope I feel better tomorrow.

8 comments:

AnyEdge said...

I hope you feel better tomorrow too!

marie said...

I hope you feel better soon.

Syd said...

I understand about the experience of being with a parent who is dying. I didn't know that he would be dead the next day but I am so glad I went to be with him. It is an experience that tells me God was there. Right there with both of us.

steveroni said...

Friday (tomorrow) is almost always a feel-better day. Hopefully.

Mary LA said...

I wasn't able to be with either of my parents, but I understand what you mean. Rest well and I hope you feel better soon.

dAAve said...

Best wishes on getting less sick. One hour at a time.

Of course, I understand about being with a dying parent. The greatest moments of my life were the 3 years of being with my Mom as she slowly faded from this world. Had I been drinking ....

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

Hope you feel beter soon!

My first sponsor's mom is dying, he's living with her to help her and comfort her as she adjusts from this life to the next...

Very difficult.

tolonges said...

I was holding my Mother's hand when she went to God. It was incredibly special. Hope you feel better quick-fast...