Friday, October 29, 2010

Fateful Friday

Something wicked this way has come... and has not yet left. This morning a migraine has been added to the miserable mix.

There really is a phenomenon known as "post-marathon depression," maybe if that is thrown on a person who already has major depressive disorder you really have a storm. My post-half-marathon depressions have not lasted long, I think this one has already gone past that length of time - but perhaps it lasts twice as long. I have spent a year with laser focus on training for a marathon - now it is over.

Work is not a happy place for me right now. That meeting was a three hour long nightmare yesterday. In a hot room. With a new cashmere sweater. But I felt I looked good - and believe me, that was the only consolation. I was the only woman without a suit on, and I didn't care. I always used to wear a suit to that meeting and I was only more miserable for sitting in a hot jacket for three hours.

I could go on and on with my complaints, but there is no point.

So, what did I do yesterday?
  • went to an AA meeting at 6:30 a.m.
  • worked all day - just like I am supposed to
  • came home from work and made a healthy dinner for myself
  • made phone calls to people in AA
I will now get dressed for my day and do the same thing again.

I know that "this too shall pass." It doesn't have to feel good every day and that is a good thing because it really doesn't feel good now.

Every morning in my prayer and meditation, I read a Psalm. This morning the Psalm was a lamentation Psalm. I know I am not the only whiner! It is a great consolation to me that God listens to whiners too.


Kim A. said...

I sometimes envision my Creator having the same look as my sponsor does when I start whining. It usually works. I shut up a lot quicker than I used to and start a gratitude list.

The weekend comes--I hope it is a restful, peaceful time for you.


Carverlane said...

Sending positive thoughts your way, Mary! You are a blessing to me because you keep walking the matter what. AND you make the time to tell us how you do that.

Let Go, Let God said...

Thank you for this post. I have been in a funk the past couple of day and have been working on acceptance. This is just where I am right now. This too shall pass.

dAAve said...

Sorry about your migraine.
I hope your day just gets better and better and better.

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

Sorry you're not feeling well. I'm glad you're still hanging in here and that I'm not the only one who has nightmare meetings to sit through.

Syd said...

MC, I am just catching up on your blog. Things have been hectic here. Anyway, I hope that you are feeling more positive now. Take care.