Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Wondering Wednesday

There's my "boastful" marathon magnet. Dave wrote me the nicest comment about keeping it yesterday. It actually made me cry. And if you haven't blogged for long, keep coming back, we really can form meaningful relationships here.

This morning I am shopping online for a quilt for my bed. I have decided that my down duvet can be a blanket under a quilt this winter. I think I have found the quilt I want. Of course, it costs twice as much as I wanted to spend. But there is no sense in buying a quilt that will fall apart at its first washing. (I could finish the quilt I started making about 8 years ago, it is still sitting in a large box in my extra bedroom -but I probably never will.)

So, in my online meanderings, I was wandering around facebook for a while. And there was my first sponsor's face. She normally doesn't have a profile photo, and never posts anything. But she is in the US to visit her daughter (I know this from FB) and is posting photos. I looked at her picture and cried. She was my sponsor only for a brief period, but was my BEST friend for - ever (20 + years). So, I guess she truly was my BFF. We always imagined we would be old lady best friends, but she moved to the UK, got married, and started drinking and our relationship got weird and now it is non-existent. I wrote her a message this morning that simply told her how much I miss her. It is up to her whether and how she responds to that. But the truth is that I miss her terribly. I haven't seen her for over 10 years. To see a current picture of her made me cry - she is beautiful as always, but I can see the years in her eyes.

Oh, how I wish demon alcohol wouldn't take everyone away from me!

OK, hadn't meant for this post to make me cry, but it did!

I will hop in the tub, then fry up a couple of eggs! Yum, yum. I know that a certain HR woman is going to come and talk to me about a job today - and I hope they are ready to talk business because I am ready to make some changes if they are ready to pay me. Maybe I should dress nice today? hmmmm, maybe....

In any event, I will stay sober and thank God for what he has given to me, and for what he has taken away.

4 comments:

dAAve said...

You're going to fry eggs in the tub?
My God, the technology these days!!

Bruce said...

Don't give up on her...

I saw a man walk into a meeting this week who had been sober for over 10 years, left the program for a long period of time, and is now back.

Miracles...

AnyEdge said...

I want a magnet that says 5280. I've read about your sponsor many times, MC. I'm so sorry. Cunning. Baffling. Powerful.

Syd said...

I hope that she does contact you. Maybe reaching out would help her. Hang in there. Fried eggs are a special way to start the day.