Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Wednesday Evening

I have been feeling sick! I got home yesterday and wrote my little post and laid down on the couch, covered myself with a wool afghan and still shivered. This morning I didn't think I could get up, but I had stuff I had to do at work today, so I took some motrin and went back to bed, and managed to get up and get to work just a bit late.

Right now I feel better than I have in a day and a half. I am confident that I will be fine again tomorrow. (I hope.)

Whenever I get sick I can't help but reflect on all the times I was deathly ill from drinking. The thought of an 18 year old me, pretty little girl, puking her guts out, shitting at the same time with disastrous results, laying in bed shaking shaking and shaking... all the time thinking "next time I won't drink so much." Next time. Next time. I tried to get it right the next time for years and years. I might as well have been standing in front of a freight train - asserting my control over it. The disease of alcoholism is more powerful than a locomotive!

9 comments:

BigSkymAAck said...
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BigSkymAAck said...

I am glad you are feeling a little better. If you had to drive a state car I can understand crappy.
FAEA

Trudging said...

I know what you mean about being sick from drinking. I was young and it made me feel old. Good God there is no way I could do it now.

dAAve said...

Be grateful you're not a jaywalker.

red head gal said...

Thanks for the vivid reminder that I don't ever want to drink again.

Feel better soon.

AAwoken said...

(cue music) Memories.....

Shannon said...

but Daave we all were jay walkers... LOL

Motorcycle Mike - Sober Biker said...

I second that. Jaywalking was a vocation.

Glad you're feeling a little better. Hot out there ain't it.......

Sober Chick said...

I love aawokens response. LOL.

It is insane what we use to do to ourselves -- all that poison no only physically but mentally.

I think you are sick because you are taking care of your body. Most viruses or those alike seek to attack healthy hosts. I am glad to learn your state is turning for the better.