Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Tuesday Morning

Yesterday was one of the more challenging days. It was very difficult to say goodbye to my son.

This morning I will get to the gym and run three miles on the treadmill. I will come back home and get dressed for work and get out of here and go put in a full, productive day at work. My sweetheart may be coming over tonight. One foot in front of the other...

"Self-pity is one of the most unhappy and consuming defects that we know. It is a bar to all spiritual progress and can cut off all effective communication with our fellows because of its inordinate demands for attention and sympathy. It is a maudlin form of martyrdom, which we can ill afford.

"The remedy? Well, let's have a hard look at ourselves, and a still harder one at AA's Twelve Steps to recovery. When we see how many of our fellow AAs have used the Steps to transcend great pain and adversity, we shall be inspired to try these life-giving principles for ourselves." -- As Bill Sees It, p. 238

13 comments:

NMAMFQLMSH said...

I can only imagine how difficult it must of been to say goodbye to your son.
I see you MC,
JJ
PS: It is people like your son that make me proud to be an American.
I see him too.

Ginnie said...

So glad you visited my site. I have 17 years of sober living under my belt and my biggest regret is that I didn't start it sooner.
It must be a terrific wrench to have your son go off to war. You (and he) will be in my prayers. Ginnie

dAAve said...

ditto re: your son

I know all about self-pity AND I am one of the leading martyr's this world has known. In fact, I may have missed my calling. I possibly should have been a Muslim terrorist.
(by no means do I mean to insult 99.99% of the good Muslims in this world)

Scott said...

hmmm, tough one girl... I'll be thinking bout y'all... I am just glad you have such a strong relationship with your son.

peace to you!

sirreene said...

Difficult indeed. You are permitted to be sad and have your silent moments. And then GET RUNNING! good for you!

DG - trudgingtheroad said...

Good Byes can be tough. I used to avoid them when drinking. It sounds like you handled this so well.

You are a great example of how to work this program MC.

Trudging said...

I cannot even imagine how hard it must be to see a son off to war. You are a real example. What is his first name, I would like to keep him in my prayers

Gwen said...

Sounds like you are living in the solution. Feeling the feelings the best you can. My heart is with you.

G~

Sober Chick said...

Oh MC my prayers are with you as you say goodbye to your son and work thru this time. You certainly have so much courage and I am far from feeling what it is like to be a mom, to be a parent. I am a daughter, and thru your words am able to grasp some knowledge of what my own mother may experience.

Your exercise routines are so inspiring. And a size 10, that is a wonderful feeling.

Tab said...

A little pity party is not a bad thing especially when you realize enough already and hop back on your bike..etc!
Hope you have nice visit with
your sweetie.
Thanks for sharing ~

lash505 said...

That is a day I wish would never come.

Scott W said...

Prayers for you and your son and family. It gives me pause to consider what it much be like, to experience a loved one going off like that. The program has given you the answers, stay close.

Alcoholic Brain said...

My daughter went to inpatient treatment at age 16. She leaves again in the morning for another 90 days inpatient. She is now 30 years old. There's only one pity pot. Please guys, move over, I need to sit down. Thank you. Recovery can suck at times. But we know the alternative to recovery and the 12 principles...Hell. You rock MC!!