I think I sounded somewhat manic in my post yesterday. Believe me, I am not manic. I am just a bit of an overachiever. I had a lot planned yesterday because I wanted to have a day of rest today... and sure enough, I have a day of rest today. I painted my bathroom a very pale blue/green (after I ran 7 miles and met with my new sponsee) . It is pretty. I bought new towels - I think it looks nice.
My ex-husband got an e-mail from my son yesterday. He has been working every single day and hasn't had a moment to himself. He said he will call everyone this week. I miss him so much. I try not to worry, but I am a mom, and he is at war, and frankly I would be a little bit nuts if I didn't worry some. I just try not to let it consume my life.
Today as I was getting ready for the 6:30 a.m. meeting, I thought about my first sponsor. She met her husband and moved to England 10 years ago. Her husband is a drinker, and after a few years, my friend became a drinker again too. Let me be quick to add that she stopped attending meetings long before this. We are not in contact very much anymore. The last time I talked to her, she said she was going to quit drinking, because she had just had a heart attack. I can tell from the couple of e-mails I have gotten from her, that she has not been successful at quitting drinking. But when I spoke with her, she told me that she really started drinking heavily when her son was in Iraq. I am so grateful that instead of drinking, I have become even more involved in AA and everything I am supposed to be doing to maintain some semblance of sanity... and it is working. I will be forever grateful to my friend because she twelve stepped me through my first couple of months of sobriety. I am so sad about her and I pray for her. God Bless all of Us Alcoholics. What a dreadful disease we have. But by the Grace of a Loving God, we get to live good lives when we surrender...
"When we look back, we realize that the things which came to us when we put ourselves in God's hands were better than anything we could have planned. Follow the dictates of a Higher Power and you will presently live in a new and wonderful world, no matter what your present circumstances!" -- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 100