Sunday, February 25, 2007

Sunday Afternoon

I didn't feel like writing this morning - or doing anything else for that matter. So, I went to a 6:30 a.m. meeting. I even felt disconnected at the meeting. Nothing made sense to me, and nothing was funny, even though everyone else was laughing uproariously (is that a word? apparently so, wordcheck likes it.) After the meeting, I talked with my friend Larry, who agreed that no one was making sense this morning. After talking to him I was relieved that I wasn't unique in my perceptions, and I also realized how profoundly tired I am.

So instead of running, I went down to the best book store in the Universe - The Tattered Cover. I spent an hour or so picking out and buying a couple of books I want to read. Then I came home and went for a leisurely bike ride instead of a run. I am now going to eat lunch, take a nap, and get ready to watch at least part of the Academy Awards.

A friend from the 5:30 meeting called me this morning just to tell me how much she admires the way I handle the stress of having a son at war. That was a wonderful affirmation. She is a sweetheart. The new woman who asked me to sponsor her last Sunday still hasn't called, but I have seen her at meetings and talked to her. She said that one day this week she felt that she just could not stand the stress in her life and that she HAD to drink. But then she said she thought about me, and realized that she does not HAVE to drink. She can stay sober. Wow. That really touched my heart. I guess there is a reason for all the sharing I do, even when I feel like everyone must be sick to death of hearing from me.

"The only real freedom a human being can ever know is doing what you ought to do because you want to do it." -- Alcoholics Anonymous (3rd ed.,) p. 553

10 comments:

Miss Independent said...

Thank you so much for your support and for always sharing you ESH with us :)

Scott W said...

I have those days when a meeting makes no sense, I can't laugh at what others think is funny. I can't be totally connected every single day, but most days I am. My sponsor says that God runs the meetings, so I just keep coming back because no matter what I am feeling, God does not change, and I have to stay connected.

Maybe one day I can hear one of your shares. That would make me smile really big.

Meg Moran said...

that would make me smile too...sometimes I imagine all of us bloggers in a room together having a meeting, what a nice fantasy. I love the selection you chose about freedom.

dAAve said...

yo

Pam said...

I have felt that way so many times, upon leaving a meeting....and wondering what it was about.
As always.....your boy is my prayers.

Sober Chick said...

So when do we hear the book reviews? :)

May your new sponsee continue to take it one day at a time and refrain from picking up that first drink. What a miracle to have your presence in her life. May this continue to build.

Scott said...

wow MC, our Priest said this exact thing in his homily this morning... pretty freaky!

It sounds like I an awesome day to me! I love spending time looking through bookstores... such peace and reflection!

Sober @ Sundown said...

Hi MC,

I crashed this weekend too. I was just too tired to do anything, so I did things that made me happy. Have a wonderful week.

lushgurl said...

Lots of times things don't seem to make sense to me too, usually it is only my own thoughts in my head !I always look forward to reading your stuff though, I usually feel connected then...*HUGS*

Motorcycle Mike - Sober Biker said...

I told a youngster in the program today that I have never been to a bad meeting. Sometimes I hear things that don't stick, because they do not jive with my ESH. but when something clicks like it did today, it is blessed.

Keep coming back.

Oh, and what's this I hear about a trip to Texas??

Oh, and how do you put a link in your post like "friend in Montan" that links to his blog. I can't figure it out, but will try again.