On Monday, I actually considered going back to work and forgoing this "waste of time, not going anywhere" vacation. Yesterday I had a great day, and frankly this morning I am enjoying sitting here in my jammies, drinking coffee, not worrying about being anywhere.
Yesterday morning I went to a meeting, then I went to church, then I came home and ran 3 miles, then I had lunch with a dear friend. I came home and took a 2 HOUR NAP! Then a sponsee came over, after she left I watched my fave TV show (House), and then I went to bed! It was a great day!
I haven't spoken to my sponsor about my big career decision yet. I think I have made my decision though. I think it is tempting to go back to square one with my career and start something new. That is what I like to do. I would like to start in an entirely new direction. However, I think it is more responsible to progress in the career I have already devoted most of my career to. I am good at it, I have the skills, knowledge, and ability - and I have creativity. I can bring all that into teaching others. (I talked about this briefly at the meeting yesterday, and afterwards a new woman came up to me and told me she didn't care WHAT I was teaching, she wanted to be in my class!)
Today I think I will go shopping. I still have a movie I would really like to see... either this afternoon or tonight. It is Bella and is supposed to be very special.
I am so glad I decided to just take this time to just be at home. It is good.
I am considering discontinuing my AA literature quote at the end of each post - it seems I pick the same quotes over and over.... any opinions?
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I know you'd be a marvelous teacher as long as you recognize the frustrations that come with it. Talk it over with your sponsor and support group.
I like the quotes you use, no matter how often I read them. With my memory, they are ALWAYS good reminders. Just like going to meetings.
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I think we can hardly take enough "me" time. It is so good for the soul. Sounds to me you are right where you are supposed to be.
Hi, I agree, talk it over with your sponsor, support group, and your H.P. All them usually have helpful suggestions. Mine always ask me are you taking the easier, softer way? Have you prayed on it, and really listened? Have you checked your motives?
As far as the quotes, I always read something new out of the Big Book every time! So there great to me.
But, if your looking to do something different, maybe a meditation book? (24 Hours, Daily Reflections, A Women's Spirit, The Little Red Book, all great titles, just a few suggestions)
Thanks for posting while you're on vacation, it's really helpful to me.
Mary Christine Said:
I haven't spoken to my sponsor about my big career decision yet.
Micky Said:
Dear Mary
Don't forget to tell your SPONSOR, when you have impure thoughts? Don't forget to tell your SPONSOR, that you are a SINNER, and that JESUS CHRIST died on a cross, for your sins? Don't forget to tell your SPONSOR when you change your brand of toilet? Are you INSANE, MARY CHRISTINE? I love you, Mary Christine! Do you love me?
I, MICKY, AM A GIFT TO ALL PEOPLE!!
OXFORD GROUP SOUL SURGERY:
Oxford group soul surgery techniques called for augmentation of guilt leading to the conversion experience. The alcoholics had learned, through their own conversion, a different method, augmentation of fear with an initial diminution of guilt. “It’s not your fault it’s a disease. There is nothing you can do about it. You’ll die unless you believe.” When a person was properly convinced & reached a point of proper desperation, guilt was then applied to bring about conversion of God control. These new groupers [Steppers] were motivated not primarily by guilt, but by fear. The other groupers [Steppers] being god controlled through guilt would use guilt to manipulate others. Are you using your GUILT to MANIPULATE the other STEPPERS, MARY?
1 John 1:9 (NNAS) "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
I, MICKY, AM A GIFT TO ALL PEOPLE
SOBER NUGGETS, THE GREAT DELETER!!
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Scott W said...
Getting more active is good, especially now that it has cooled off. I slacked off when it got hot and have yet to start back up walking. I gotta do that. I would hate to become a shape shifting reptile! That would make me a good candidate for The X-Files.
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I, MICKY, AM A GIFT TO ALL PEOPLE!!
I love what you write here, it is such an inspiration to me. Keep it coming! This is such a cool way to share your sobriety with another trudger! I wait with anticipation each nstallment of your blog.
I'm with the woman from your meeting:) and thanks for the movie reccommendation. I've been wanting to see something and nothing is out there. I like the quotes but you should do what works for you.
my opinion? don't stop
"I am considering discontinuing my AA literature quote at the end of each post - it seems I pick the same quotes over and over.... any opinions?"
Frankly, I don't read blogs for the random quotes many of them contain. I'm more interested in the personal stuff (a.k.a. E., S. & H.). I say use a quote when it's relevant to what you're posting about, but leave out the "randomly" selected ones.
DETESTABLE NECROMANCER
You know, the message the 12 Step Paradigm tells us that we are all just powerless over our addictions, meaningless specks of offal in an endless ocean of space and matter where hydrogen atoms and bacteria of unexplained origin can turn into god as you understand him!! Oooo! It’s so exciting and uplifting to be regularly assured by Steppers in all their ineffable knowledge and function is just an accumulation of 1st Century Christianity Buchmanism & Nihilism. Oooo! It’s heart-warming, I’ll tell ya. We owe these "messengers" so terribly much that it is difficult to put into words... We can talk to dead people & consult spiritists.
9 When you enter the land the LORD your God is giving you, do not learn to imitate the detestable ways of the nations there. 10 Let no one be found among you who sacrifice his son or daughter in the fire, who practices divination or sorcery, interprets omens, engages in witchcraft, 11 or casts spells, or who is a medium or spiritist or who consults the dead. 12 Anyone who does these things is detestable to the LORD, and because of these detestable practices the LORD your God will drive out those nations before you. 13 You must be blameless before the LORD your God [Deuteronomy 18: 9-13]
Wilson was a “detestable necromancer” who talked to dead people & consulted spiritists. He was “an angel of light” and if you Steppers want what he had, keep going to 12 Step meetings & end up as zombies. I beg of you to see the True Light [John 3: 16] & have Eternal Life, not death [12 Steps].
I, MICKY, AM A GIFT TO ALL PEOPLE!!
DOES ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS FOCUS ON JESUS CHRIST?
"Agents For Satan"
A DOZEN STEPS
A REASON A SEASON A LIFETIME
AAWAKENINGS
ALCOHOLIC BRAIN
ANONYMOUS ALCOHOLIC
ATTITUDE OF GRATITUDE
BIG SKY MAACK
BLUE'S THOUGHTS
COFFEE BITCH
DRAGON SPEAK
FLOWERDAVES PAGES
FROM THE FIRST CHAKRA (MSB)
HIGHER POWERED
I'M JUST F.I.N.E.
INMATEZ WIFE
IT'S A GIRL THING
LUSH FOR LIFE
MY JOURNEY TO RECOVERY
MY LIFE IN TAMPA
NO COMMENT
OUTRIGHT MENTAL DEFECTIVE
POSTCARDS FROM CUPCAKE MONKEY
RAANCH
RECOVERY ROAD
RIDIN' ON THE WAGON
SCOUT'S NEWCOMER DAZE
SIMPLY ANNA
SOBER CHICK
SOBER MOM
SOBER NUGGETS
SOBERING THOUGHTS
SOBERINSANITY
STAY AT HOME MOTHERDOM
STAYING STRAIGHT EDGE
THIS UNMANAGEABLE LIFE
THY WILL, NOT MINE
TODAAY
TWELVEBEADS
TWO DOGS BLOGGING
YOU AND ME ARE FLOATING...
"I, Micky, am a gift to all people!"
I LOVE JESUS SO MUCH
I SHOULD NEVER HAVE ANY CAUSE OR REASON TO BE ASHAMED TO LOVE JESUS.
Is not the time coming, and the day hastening, when covetous men shall be ashamed of loving the world, and voluptuous men ashamed of loving their pleasures, and ambitious men ashamed of loving their honors?
For is it not a horrid shame, that a rational creature should be such a sot as to love sin which is most loathsome, and not to love Jesus who is most lovely? to love deformity, and not beauty?
Oh shame, shame! It is a shame that sin should have such esteem, and Jesus such great contempt put upon him. But shame shall before long confound these now shameless wretches, when they shall cry out, "We are ashamed that we loved profits, and not Jesus- houses, lands, lusts, and not Jesus.
This is the confusion of our faces, and shame covers us-- that we should be so foolish, and so blind, that we had not sense, nor reason, to distinguish between sin, which is the greatest and most odious evil, and Jesus who is the greatest and most lovely good." But the time will never come, the day will never be, that a gracious soul shall be ashamed of his sincere love to Jesus Christ
I, MICKY, AM A GIFT TO ALL PEOPLE!!
SOUND OF SOBRIETY
Hello darkness, my old friend,
Ive come to talk crap again,
An AA meeting softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the 12 Steps that were planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of sobriety.
In restless meetings I walked alone
Bill Wilson Clones, made of stone
Neath the halo of an OLD TIMER,
I turned my collar to the 1st and 3rd Step
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
A SPIRITUAL AWAKENING
That split the night
And touched the sound of sobriety.
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand STEPPERS, maybe more.
STEPPERS reading the BIG BOOK,
STEPPERS hearing without listening,
STEPPERS writing their 4th STEP
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of sobriety.
Zombies said I, you do not know
Sobriety like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might BRAINWASH you,
Take my arms that I might 13th Step you.
But my words like the higher power fell,
And echoed
In the halls of sobriety
And the STEPPERS ranted and raved
To the AA god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the sign said, KEEP COMING BACK
IT WORKS IF YOU WORK IT
And the 12 STEP ZOMBIES.
Whispered in the sounds of sobriety.
HA! HA! HA HA! HA HA! HA HA! HA HA!
HA! HA! HA HA! HA HA! HA HA! HA HA!
I, MICKY, AM A GIFT TO ALL PEOPLE!!
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