Monday, February 11, 2008

Feelin' Fine

I am so glad I took Friday off because I feel fine today. It took me three days of doing virtually nothing to get to feeling fine. This week, I have Biblical School tonight, and the remaining nights, I have not one thing planned. I am meeting with a sponsee who just started a new job and can no longer come over in the evening... so we are meeting at the 6:30 meeting this morning.

I am so excited about having "nothing" to do this week! Yippeeee!

I can see that I seriously need a vacation, when even three days off gives me a new perspective. Work has been incredibly difficult. I have had too many women to sponsor. I find teaching satisfying, but extremely exhausting - I am not sure I think it is worth it. Training for a marathon is pretty tiring for a 56 year old woman. In other words, I am really, really tired.

So today I will go meet my sponsee. We will read Chapter 3, More About Alcoholism, and discuss as we go. I will go to work and try to give it 100% of my attention, my skills, and my abilities. I will go to Biblical School tonight and get filled back up. It is wonderful to sit there and see this mysterious book come to life for me. It is truly life altering and very very nurturing.

"The alcoholic at certain times has no effective mental defense against the first drink. Except in a few rare cases, neither he nor any other human being can provide such a defense. His defense must come from a Higher Power." -- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 43

8 comments:

Scott W said...

It's good when we take care of ourselves. Have a great Monday!

dAAve said...

Glad you're feeling better. It shouldn't be temporary though. If you had to cut one thing out of your current life, which would it be?
...AA & everything related
...work
...church
...biblical school
...teaching
...running
Food for thought.

Kathy Lynne said...

Back in the day when I had soooo much to do I drank to take a break. Now I have soooo much to do and I have added my recovery to the mix which is really time consuming between meetings, phone calls, prayer and meditation. But that's the stuff I love. I am grateful that I know now that my breaks are healthy for me and for others. That I don't have to do everything. And like you said, I can take a day off from work without guilt and remorse so that I can tend to some of my forgotten home duties today. So good to be a sober woman.

Banana Girl said...

Oh, Sherpa, you once again call out and identify the malaise. Thank you. I just had a thought that helped me clear my head. Amazing. That's why I continue to be "one of the few" (boohoo, just check my blog if you want to define few) who comment. I need to let you know I need you to be here and sharing because you help me daily! Thanks for being you and being you in my life. Jeanne

Pam said...

I am so glad you are feeling better, and rested..little tomatilla

Syd said...

Sometimes my body just tells me to stop. I need to slow down. I need a few days off. Glad that the rest did you good.

Christine said...

nothing to do for a whole week? That sounds more like heaven thatn a vacation

Nancy said...

I love reading your blog and you have no idea how inspired I am with the way you live your life. The fact that you are so incredibly busy and you still make time for all the important things, is a lesson I have to learn. I have been going through an incredibly hard time lately, and it is people like you who give me hope.