I am fortunate to have a great sponsor. She is eleven years older than me. She is sober eleven years longer than me. She has had health problems. She has had heart problems.
So, when I called her today, she knew what I was talking about. She didn't sidestep it or try to make it sound "nice."
I probably won't write much about this because I am tired of being criticized. I don't want to be criticized for feeling as vulnerable as I have in recent years at a minimum - maybe ever.
I don't feel very well. I don't know whether it is lingering effects of the ativan I had last night or not. I guess I will know tomorrow. I will know more on Monday morning when I see my primary care physician.
I am now going to get in my car and drive through a blizzard (complete with thunder and lightening) to pick up my daughter at 5. I am extremely grateful that she will be spending the weekend with me.