Saturday, May 05, 2007

Dizzy

I am feeling dizzy this morning. I am going on an organized run, and I don't want to go. I really don't feel well. But I am reminded of what my high school sociology teacher wrote in my year book "If dizzy dames are what make this world go around, you must make it rotate five times faster." That was AFTER he asked me to run away to California with him on his motorcycle. I have often wondered what would have happened if I said yes. Of course, back then, I thought it was a fun flirtation... now it would be considered sexual assault by one in a position of trust... he would go to prison for 10 years and then be a sex offender for life - unable to live anywhere but under a bridge.

I really am dizzy and have a headache. But I will go on this run anyway. I will give an update about whether I feel worse or better afterwards.
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Update:
The run was miserable. I felt like crap. I intended to run 6 miles, but got to the 2 mile mark and was CRYING like a baby, and decided to head back. I am so freaking slow. Slower than any other runner (but faster than the walkers). An Angel named Lana ran back with me. I got to talk with a bunch of experienced marathoners after the run, and I am re-encouraged. It doesn't matter how fast or slow I am, what matters is that I am out there doing it. (another thought: when you run with a running club, they just MIGHT be the fast runners.) They assured me that I will NOT be the last finisher.
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Have a great weekend everybody.

"Burn the idea into the consciousness of every man that he can get well regardless of anyone. The only condition is that he trust in God and clean house." -- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 98

8 comments:

Scott W said...

I'll say one thing, you sure are determined. Good luck on that run.

Scott said...

I hope you feel "more betterly" after your run! :-)

Syd said...

MC, I hope that you will be okay. I know that you want to push yourself but maybe you need to listen to your body. I did yesterday and crashed at about 5 PM and didn't wake up until around 8:30 PM. I needed that after a long week at work. Anyway, I'm not your dad but hope that you will take care of yourself.

Pam said...

girl...I don't know what the heck motivates you! PS..I probably would have run off with him.

dAAve said...

My cat(s) ate my homework.

Scott said...

my dear friend MC, an unsolicited response to your unsolicited advice: I sure do get pissed off, alot! really pissed off!! Thank you for asking! I am really, really glad you asked!

You're advice is always solicited MC, I truly value your experience, strength and hope!

Thank you, thank you!

Shannon said...

I am giving you a big ol hug- MARY CHRISTINE!!!! stop being so hard on youeself. I hope you feel better. BUt I really want you to know how much I admire and love you.
Get some rest, and take care of you
(((((((HUGS))))))

Trudging said...

I am sorry that your run sucked. I hope you feel better.