As soon as it gets light outside, I am going to drive to a nearby lake and take a run or two around it. I am tired of running the hills around my house - it was very good training for the half-marathon, but I don't need to do hills right now. It would be nice to take a flat run for a change.
I got fired by my neediest sponsee on Monday night. She got angry when she saw me at a meeting after I had told her I was spending the day with my daughter. My daughter had a change of plans and I didn't feel compelled to notify my sponsee that I had a moment of unexpected free time. I cannot imagine the entitled attitude that some women seem to get when they ask you to sponsor them. I am honored that my sponsor is willing to share her experience, strength, and hope with me - I would never claim some ownership of her time or attention... but that is me! I did talk with my sponsor about this situation and she TOLD me that I must not sponsor anybody new. I am sponsoring too many people now, and I think I have ventured into ego trip territory. I will heed the advice of my wonderful sponsor and tell the next person "no."
"If we really depended upon God, we couldn't very well play God to our fellows nor would we feel the urge wholly to rely on human protection and care. These were the new attitudes that finally brought many of us an inner strength and peace that couldnot be deeply shaken by the shortcomings of others or by any calamity not of our own making." -- Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, p. 116