Yesterday at work I was feeling ill. I had to give a presentation at 2:00, and planned on just getting through that and going home. But no! In the middle of my presentation, I got that overwhelming feeling and had to run out of the room and go vomit! Yikes. How embarrassing.
As I knelt in front of the porcelain and hurled my guts out (you're welcome, I know you enjoy the detail), what did I think? I thought "Oh NO! Yesterday was a holiday, they are going to think I am hungover!" Honestly! God willing and the creeks don't rise, I will celebrate 23 years of continuous sobriety on July 24. I have been working in the same place for almost 13 years - I have never thrown up in all the time I have worked there. WHY would anyone think I am hungover? Some ideas just never want to leave us.
I had to go back into the meeting, pick up my PDA, keys, notebook, etc., and apologize and leave for the day. When I got home, I went to bed, and then the woman I have sponsored for a long time (bless her heart) took me out for dinner. I am not going to work today - I really still feel awful.
Thank God I am sober. I cannot imagine feeling like this almost every day - which I did for years. -- And whenever I think about all those hangover mornings, I recall the best description of a hangover I have ever heard...
"We know for sure that alcoholics do have tremendous willpower. Consider the ways we could manage to get a drink in defiance of all visible possibilities. Merely to get up some mornings - with a rusting cast-iron stomach, all your teeth wearing tiny sweaters, and each hair electified - takes willpower many nondrinkers rarely dream of." --Living Sober, p. 85