Friday, July 06, 2007

ick.

Yesterday at work I was feeling ill. I had to give a presentation at 2:00, and planned on just getting through that and going home. But no! In the middle of my presentation, I got that overwhelming feeling and had to run out of the room and go vomit! Yikes. How embarrassing.

As I knelt in front of the porcelain and hurled my guts out (you're welcome, I know you enjoy the detail), what did I think? I thought "Oh NO! Yesterday was a holiday, they are going to think I am hungover!" Honestly! God willing and the creeks don't rise, I will celebrate 23 years of continuous sobriety on July 24. I have been working in the same place for almost 13 years - I have never thrown up in all the time I have worked there. WHY would anyone think I am hungover? Some ideas just never want to leave us.

I had to go back into the meeting, pick up my PDA, keys, notebook, etc., and apologize and leave for the day. When I got home, I went to bed, and then the woman I have sponsored for a long time (bless her heart) took me out for dinner. I am not going to work today - I really still feel awful.

Thank God I am sober. I cannot imagine feeling like this almost every day - which I did for years. -- And whenever I think about all those hangover mornings, I recall the best description of a hangover I have ever heard...

"We know for sure that alcoholics do have tremendous willpower. Consider the ways we could manage to get a drink in defiance of all visible possibilities. Merely to get up some mornings - with a rusting cast-iron stomach, all your teeth wearing tiny sweaters, and each hair electified - takes willpower many nondrinkers rarely dream of." --Living Sober, p. 85

11 comments:

Scott W said...

Thanks for the nasty reminder. Tooth sweaters. Eww!

Sorry you are feeling puny. Rest and take fluids.

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Pam said...

darlin'...ouch..eww.
When I was 7 years sober, and I was being put under for some surgery...I grabed the doctors hand and said "I really do need to be put to sleep while you cut me open...I promise it's not drug seeking behavior" LOL!
Isn't it funny that we are afraid of being judged for the very opposite way we are actually living our lives. I'm sorry you are sick.....sleep sleep sleep. NO RUNNING DOWN THE STREET

Trudging said...

Sounds like the same bug I had. It sucks!

Ann P. said...

I always think the one good thing about that yucky kind of bug (after I recover) is that at least it reminds me of those terrible hangover days, and WHY did I keep on doing that?!
Hope you feel much better soon!

Syd said...

Hope that you feel better. Hurling is never fun. I've seen many seasick people and it makes me break out in a sweat to think about it.

Linda V. said...

MC, hang in there kiddo. I remember MANY a nights hurling everywhere (I'm a projectile vomiter when I drink)...LMAO

Rest, Drink Water, Rest and Rest some more...

Shannon said...

I am glad you are sober
I can relate to thinking people may think that
when I was 5 months pregnant, I was also 4 yrs sober, I was running for the bus, when I had the urge to vomit, and I could just catch it with my hand... and the people around me looked at... I am sure they couldnt tell I was pregnant and thought I was hung over too
I sure hope you feel better, and I am sober July person too. Happy almost B-day to you

Grateful said...

Thanks for reminding me how good it feels to feel good!

Hope you're better soon.

lushgurl said...

Are ya feeling any better now? It is so true that my mind automatically wonders if people think I'm still drinking, or using for that matter, my nose constantly runs from allergies!!!
I do agree that in general we alcoholics are a hardy folk.Get well soon (but no hugs today 'cause I don't wanna get sick LOL)

AAwoken said...

At least you didn't get food stuck in your nose. I used to all the time when I did my high velocity pukin'. Funny how some thoughts never leave us. My wife still periodically "sniffs" me. Go figure....
I hope this makes you feel the tiniest bit better. If so, mission accomplished.
God bless....

sober Chick said...

You'll be feeling like a new woman in no time. You take care of yourself physically and spiritually, this will pass quickly.