Friday, June 13, 2008

One Thousandth Post

1,000 posts.  There might be 100 that I really like.  But I have blogged consistently because I feel like I made a commitment to do that.  I have thought about quitting several times, but have instead moderated my behavior in some way or another so that I would continue to blog and like it.  (like I don't visit everyone's blog every day, I visit the people who comment on mine.)

I love to write.  I think I am an expert in many things.  But the one thing I think I can actually write about is my recovery from alcoholism.  I can write about it because I KNOW I am NOT an expert on recovery, but I have been at it for a long time.  I do know something about the subject. I know about my very own experience, strength, and hope.  My personal view is that when we veer from sharing our very own experience, strength, and hope we get into trouble because we have set ourselves up as an authority on a subject.  Now, at work, I have to be an authority on subjects, but at recovery, I get to be just another bozo on the bus.  Gratefully so.  

I heard someone once say that we don't tell anyone anything in AA, we share our own E,S,&H.  That's it.  That is what we have.  And when someone shares this with us, and we share with them, the most miraculous thing happens.  We get to belong.  We get to feel a part of something, and we lose that awful aloneness that is part and parcel of the alcoholic experience.

Thank you for being on this tremendous journey with me, it would be no fun alone!  

10 comments:

dAAve said...

I'm tremendously grateful to be on the same road as you.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad to be on the same road, Mary Christine.

848 days here!

Willa

Kathy Lynne said...

I enjoy reading about your journey. I write about mine more for myself than for others. I think of it as a journal. I was never able to journal with pen and paper. I think that its because I didn't trust myself with my own thoughts. I didn't believe myself. How could I when I lied to myself all the time? So I think I needed the public forum of blogging for the feedback and to keep myself honest. I probably should be more careful because the fact is it is NOT a private journal but...for right now I need it and it has helped to keep me sober.

♣§hannon♥ said...

good morning and I am glad you did not quit blogging... I did for awhile and I am not consitent at it.. and that is OK for me, and its ok that not everyone comments on my page... I am grateful for that.
the other thing, is thank you for sharing what you shared today. I soooo needed to hear that I just love ya, I know I dont know you, but what you share is always so real and I appreciate that MC. Happy Friday
Shan

wendy said...

I started reading before I got sober...perhaps that was foreshadowing. weird that you never know how or whom you might help. thanks for sharing everything that you do on the blog.

Pam said...

from one bozo to another...happy 1000th post-honk honk

Scott W said...

Hey fellow traveler! Nice to share the path with you.

♥Shann♥ said...

I had to come and read this again today... hee hee I told you I really needed it
Hvae a good night
Shann

Zane-nawwaa said...

Love your ES&H. Right on.

Syd said...

I like that you have humility. Your many years of sobriety could give you the "right" to tell others or to be self-righteous. Instead, you share and you say that you are not an expert in recovery. That is a great attitude and probably one of the reasons that you are still sober. I prefer to be humble and to be around those who hear something new at every meeting. I don't ever want to feel "better than" nor do I want to go back to "lesser than". I just want to be on the same wavelength with my HP, ready to receive and ready to do His will.