Monday, June 23, 2008

Sitting Around Denali

That's a photo from the airplane... over Alaska.  It has been cloudy since I have been here, so I don't have any good ground based photos of the gorgeous mountains here - YET.  
When I got the ticket, I really had a bit of an experience.  Imagine a woman walking through Denver International Airport - weeping.  Yep.  That was me.  I just couldn't believe that I was finally achieving the dream of getting to go to Alaska.  I was thrilled.  At Portland, on a four hour layover, I met a contingent of runners which was fun... I saw them at the race too.

It has been great to visit with my nephew.  He has a wonderful young family.  I was surprised that he doesn't have wireless internet, so my internet access from his house has been virtually non-existent.  That has also been nice.  I have missed my blog, but I think it might have been a healthy break from it.  After tomorrow I will be back to Anchorage and will probably not post until I come home next Monday.  

My nephew was able to register for the race and run it.  It was kind of cool to participate in a race with my beloved nephew.  He hadn't trained, so it was hard on his body... and mine too.  The race was my worst time ever.  It is OK.  I stopped to help a woman who fell.  I stopped to take a picture of a moose on the trail.... yes, a MOOSE.
As you can see, this was a male moose!  The amazing thing was that I was not afraid of it!  Now, if I run into a bear, I am sure I will be less "brave."

I got to go to a meeting with my nephew on Friday.  That was nice.  Really nice.  Really Really Nice.

If this post seems disjointed, it is because it probably is.  I am still sick.  I wish I felt better but I don't.  I don't feel bad enough to stay in bed, but I feel bad enough to know that I don't feel good.  In one respect, it is a perfect opportunity to do nothing.  It is a lovely resort, my room is nice and it is very relaxing here.  For one thing, the median age of a visitor is probably around 65 - and that is factoring in the couple of children here.  

Usually on a vacation I get a different perspective of my life.  Usually I come back with all kinds of resolve to change this or that.  Amazingly enough on this trip, my perspective is that my life is good.  It is probably too busy, but I like being busy.  I have a nice family, and good relationships with all of them.  I have a nice home which I really enjoy.  I have wonderful friendships with people in AA.  My professional life is difficult, but it is supposed to be.  Most people wouldn't do what I do for a living for any amount of money.   I don't make a whole lot of money, but I do enjoy what I do for the most part.  I enjoy incredibly good health.  I will celebrate 24 years of continous sobriety in one month and one day.  Who could ask for more?  I am grateful to the very core of my being.  Without trying to convince myself - I am grateful.  

I truly am spontaneously grateful.  


♥Shann♥ said...

Good morning, sounds like you are right in a good place, a place of self love and acceptance of all. How awesome it is to achieve that kind of peace! right on MC. Hope to see ya soon out here in blogland ! love shann

Trudging said...

Wow, I have always wanted to go there.

Syd said...

And you did get to see a moose. I just knew you would. Great photos of the mountains. I am glad that you did the race and that you helped someone else. That is more important than the timing in my mind. You were there, in it, and did it. Good for you.

Scott W said...

I think you are spontaneously fabulous! To have what you want and to want what you have is the ultimate.

Zane-nawwaa said...

Doing the race isn't your only top achievement. Mooses are not pretty animals, I think you shot the best part. Enjoy, Enjoy. Enjoy.

Pam said...

I'm sad you're sick.
I'm happy you're finally in Alaska.
I'm sad you have not been able to post.
I'm happy you sound so peaceful.
I'm sad I can't tell that the moose is male.
I miss you litte cactus blossom.

dAAve said...

I feel lucky to witness this part of your journey.

Dharma Kelleher said...

I am supremely envious. Here in Phurnace, AZ it's been in the teens -- as in 110+ degrees. Alaska sounds scrumptious. I'm glad you achieved your dream of going.

FYI, more people in Alaska are killed by moose every year than by bear. So be careful!

Kathy Lynne said...

Its sounds like such a wonderful experience for you on so many different levels. Enjoy the rest of your stay and hope you feel better soon.

ps: okay, I keep looking for the obvious part but how do we know this is a male moose?

♥Shann♥ said...

Good Morning again just was poppin in to read you this morning, hope you are home and resting