When I got the ticket, I really had a bit of an experience. Imagine a woman walking through Denver International Airport - weeping. Yep. That was me. I just couldn't believe that I was finally achieving the dream of getting to go to Alaska. I was thrilled. At Portland, on a four hour layover, I met a contingent of runners which was fun... I saw them at the race too.
It has been great to visit with my nephew. He has a wonderful young family. I was surprised that he doesn't have wireless internet, so my internet access from his house has been virtually non-existent. That has also been nice. I have missed my blog, but I think it might have been a healthy break from it. After tomorrow I will be back to Anchorage and will probably not post until I come home next Monday.
My nephew was able to register for the race and run it. It was kind of cool to participate in a race with my beloved nephew. He hadn't trained, so it was hard on his body... and mine too. The race was my worst time ever. It is OK. I stopped to help a woman who fell. I stopped to take a picture of a moose on the trail.... yes, a MOOSE.
As you can see, this was a male moose! The amazing thing was that I was not afraid of it! Now, if I run into a bear, I am sure I will be less "brave."
I got to go to a meeting with my nephew on Friday. That was nice. Really nice. Really Really Nice.
If this post seems disjointed, it is because it probably is. I am still sick. I wish I felt better but I don't. I don't feel bad enough to stay in bed, but I feel bad enough to know that I don't feel good. In one respect, it is a perfect opportunity to do nothing. It is a lovely resort, my room is nice and it is very relaxing here. For one thing, the median age of a visitor is probably around 65 - and that is factoring in the couple of children here.
Usually on a vacation I get a different perspective of my life. Usually I come back with all kinds of resolve to change this or that. Amazingly enough on this trip, my perspective is that my life is good. It is probably too busy, but I like being busy. I have a nice family, and good relationships with all of them. I have a nice home which I really enjoy. I have wonderful friendships with people in AA. My professional life is difficult, but it is supposed to be. Most people wouldn't do what I do for a living for any amount of money. I don't make a whole lot of money, but I do enjoy what I do for the most part. I enjoy incredibly good health. I will celebrate 24 years of continous sobriety in one month and one day. Who could ask for more? I am grateful to the very core of my being. Without trying to convince myself - I am grateful.
I truly am spontaneously grateful.