Friday, August 21, 2009

Friday Night

I am not a person of dishonesty. I am not a person of subtlety. I am not a person who puts on a "happy face" if it is not real. I am, however, usually a person of many smiles - real smiles. I am a person of laughter - real laughter.

When there is not joy in my heart, I know it is temporary. But you will never hear me tell you any lies about how happy I am when I am not.

So, here is the truth:
My world view just got shook up.
I know I will be OK.
This is not how I wanted it or planned it.
I know there are no guarantees in life, and I am keenly aware of that right now.
I do not have to go mental.
But I can be sad.
I know that God is "large and in charge" and I trust Him.
I will continue to look for opportunities to be of service to God and my fellows.
And some day soon I will be singing again.

Just not today.

13 comments:

Mike Golch said...

we all have been here one time ot other,I hope you start sinings real soon.Hugs!

Carol said...

I think thaat you are absolutely right.

Carol said...

I think thaat you are absolutely right.

Scott W said...

I wear my emotions on my sleeve. It is hard for me to not show them. Things always ease up, change is the only constant it seems.

Anonymous said...

did not know you sing, but if you do, please sing again soon

Pam said...

I hear you Mary.

Willa said...

I'm with Scott, I show my emotions too much than I care too, it's hard to hide them a lot of times. I feel bad for you that today has been such a tough day.

Tall Kay said...

"God is large and in charge". Your faith is evident. I wish I had handled my recent emotional breakdown with as much grace and dignity. I'm learning...thank you for showing me how.

dAAve said...

I thought I had already posted a comment.
Oh well.

Lou said...

I like the truthful showing of feelings.

valblog said...

Thanks for talking about staying sober when things are not going well. We know that "God is large and God is in charge". Thanks for sharing your hope. You are not alone.

Ed G. said...

I appreciate you for who you are and who you share with us (need not be the same person but am glad for both - however you choose to be...).

I wish you growth, happiness and purpose in your pain...

Blessings on you and yours...

Syd said...

MC, I'm just now catching up on blogs. I hope that all will be okay for you. I'm glad that you are honest and not doing the denial "face". Take it easy. God is in charge.