Thursday, August 06, 2009

My Favorite Mountain

This is such a dramatic peak, it is snow capped probably 9 months of the year, but not at mid-summer. I drove around this evening looking at the mountain, trying to get a good photo of it. I drove by two houses I used to live in. It is so weird to see these places, still so alive in my memory - now 25 years later.

Today I did many things that were lovely. I took a run early in the morning. It was nice, but the trail was not as well-used as I expected at that hour, and I started feeling queasy about animals. Being alone on a trail in the middle of the mountains is probably not the wisest thing... oh well.

I got a facial this afternoon. It was nice. Probably over priced. I am not easily impressed by tony settings with phony music. Pitchers of water with cucumber. Big thick robes - which were pretty darn hot to wear on a hot summer day. I think probably other people's idea of luxury is my idea of stupid - most of the time.

I am having breakfast with someone very dear to me tomorrow morning. And then I will get ready to go home. I am happy to be going home.

Coming back here, 25 years after leaving, makes me realize what a tremendous amount of time 25 years is. I am so grateful that I have gotten to live the last 25 years as a sober woman. I usually underplay my length of time in sobriety because I have come to believe (with the help of a friend) that we sometimes use our time to separate ourselves from others - to set ourselves apart - and to build ourselves up. So I try not to do that. But I have to say that it is a wonderful thing to have stayed sober for this huge chunk of my life. I am so grateful for this...

By the Grace of God and the fellowship and the program of Alcoholics Anonymous.

10 comments:

Ed G. said...

I'm glad that you find value in what you have in AA. I do too...

Blessings and aloha...

Lou said...

The scenery is stunning.

dAAve said...

Looks like snow on that mountain - to me. Shows what I know.
Have a good breakfast and safe trip home.

Pam said...

You alone on a mountain trail scares me. Let's don't be doin' that again K?
I'm glad you got a break from the norm for awhile.

Gin said...

Going back "home" can be such a strange experience, but I am glad that it reminded you of the wonderful 25 sober years that you have. Have a safe trip home!

Scott W said...

Colorado is such a beautiful place. Did you know they have sober women there that run all over the place?

Syd said...

I was thinking about your running on those trails alone. Probably not such a great idea. I'm glad that you enjoyed your stay and connecting with the past. It is like I never left when I go back to my roots. Yet, I too am happy to get back to the present.

Madison said...

Big accomplishment. You're setting a fine example that 25 years is possible.

Mary Christine said...

It's not an accomplishment... it is a gift.

Scott said...

Longs Peak? My fave is Hallett Peak... We went up and hiked round Bear Lake just below Hallett, got a great photo of the peak through the trees and my wifr framed it for me as a gift... I love "going there" in meditation...