Sometimes I overestimate how much I have "gotten over" things. This valley is so full of memories - mostly bad. It is full of good memories too, but given enough time, those have a melancholy tinge to them too. Such as the school where my son (whose 33rd birthday is on Saturday) started first grade. It is no longer a school and under renovation. I spent the last 3 years of my drinking in this place. They were not such good years. I spent a bit of my sobriety here too.
I got to have dinner and spend some time last night with someone. And that has opened a whole hornet's nest in my soul.
When I left home on Monday, I deliberately didn't pack any running gear - except for shoes. I don't know why I brought the shoes when I was determined I was NOT going to run. By yesterday, I was seeking a pair of compression shorts and a new Nike + iPod sensor so that I could run today. I did find and purchase both of them. I will head out as soon as it is bright and run up a canyon I have always wanted to run. Perhaps that will put things into perspective for me.
I intend to spend the day at the hot springs and spa. This hotel is nice. I will enjoy today.