But it isn't tense. Not at all.
Writing my drinking story was an amazing adventure for me. I have told my story many times before - but always within a time constraint - sometimes an hour, sometimes less. I have, of course, written inventory many times over the years, and that has its own structure. I have never sat down and chronologically done a narrative of my story. Not doing an inventory, but just a story. I left a lot out. I tried to just capture something of each year that would sum up the year. Some years I honestly could not remember anything other than a vague feeling, usually not a good one.
As the writing continued, I was left with an overwhelming sense, once again, of the wonder, of the gratitude, for the Grace of God. I think it is easy to see that of my own, I have not much ability. Some people like to pat themselves on the back for all the "work" they have done to get and stay sober. I am not one of those. I like to thank God for His awesome work. And then try to help others as a way of showing my gratitude.
I am now off to a 6:30 meeting, in the snow and 6 degree fahrenheit cold. Now, that is cold!