Saturday, December 12, 2009

Some books

That's the book shelf with most of my AA books (and some alanon too). Also a photo of my dad in 1941 - when he was 30 years old. I have some of my dad's AA books - a second edition big book, an old Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, and an unfortunately titled "The AA Way of Life - a reader by Bill" later known as "As Bill Sees It". I have several third edition big books, and one fourth edition - on that shelf. I have other books elsewhere in the house - and some I can't find right now - like "AA Comes of Age," which I have been on a fruitless search for for about a month. (sorry, I am too tired to reconstruct that sentence.)

When I was sober about 5 years, I read every thing I could get my hands on about AA history and traditions. It is a good thing to do. Provided you don't get stuck there. It is very good to know why we do the things we do and why they are so important.

I am madly knitting for Christmas. I have an afghan to get done by Friday for my granddaughter who leaves on Saturday for her grandfather's (my ex-husband) second home near Yellowstone in Montana. They are all spending Christmas there. All the people in good graces with my ex and his wife. My son and his girlfriend, my "good" daughter, and the grandchildren.

My beautiful alcoholic daughter will be here in town, trying to get through her first sober Christmas - and get through it without her kids. I am so grateful that I get to be here to be with her in whatever way that ends up being. She is now working and when you are working in a restaurant, you work strange hours, so I think I probably won't see her that week until Christmas Day, and then we can figure out what we are going to do. It is virtually impossible to plan anything and I have other invitations I need to figure out what to do about. Tomorrow.

Who knew that sitting in your house knitting almost all day long could make a person tired? Well, I am tired. And I am going to bed. (I did go to a meeting this morning, then group conscience, then later met a friend at church and went to dinner with her, so it isn't like I did nothing but knit, but it feels like it right now.)

I am so grateful to be sober. I am so grateful that my phone has been ringing intermittently all day long. I am so grateful for sober friends. I am so grateful for relationships with my siblings that are happy. And I am super, super grateful that I got to talk with all three of my children today. And I will get to see them all on my birthday in a few days.... nice.

By the Grace of God.

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

Your fathers picture looks sort of like Bill W looked in early life.

Lou said...

"I am so grateful that I get to be here to be with her in whatever way that ends up being."

Amen, MC

dAAve said...

Nice book collection. I have some too, but no that aged.
So glad that your beautiful alcoholic daughter has a job and yall will get to spend The Day together. She is an inspiration.

And yeah, I agree that your Dad's picture looks kinda like Bill W.

Ed G. said...

Indeed.

Nicely said...

Blessings and aloha...

Pam said...

Im sort of glad that she is not in good graces with the ex. I think a christmas in montana that is full to the brim with "good" people would drive her to the edge. This is a good year for to stay "with her own kind" in Denver.
KNIT ON MARY!

Scott W said...

I pictured you knitting, face in a knot, steam coming out of your ears! I know that is not the kind of 'knitting madly' you meant, but it was fun to imagine!

Syd said...

I think that our houses reflect either what is on the inside of us or the outside face that we want to portray. At least I know that your's refects the essence of who you truly are.

Patty said...

Wow, I had to go back and re-read the first part because I thought that was a picture of Bill W. Whew, I really did not think you would have an AA shrine in your house. Tee,hee. OK, you got me going now! I am in no way as talented a knitter as you, but I am getting out the needles and yarn. I think I will make some scarves for Christmas gifts now!

Willa said...

My books are not as old as yours but I do have many AA books! It's great to have them and read them.