Wednesday, June 08, 2011

Ruined Lives

I am a person who watches way too much television news. CNN to be specific. People who know me well cannot believe I can have this playing in the background so often. But it is an old habit.

In the last month or so, I have heard the stories of ruined lives. Overly powerful men who think they have license to do anything - and then do. And the women and children who love (or loved) them.

Now, I am a person who has a photo of Mel Gibson in my office. I am not fickle with my celebrities or even politicians.

I have done too many insanely incomprehensible things in my life, and not all of them when I was drunk. As a drunk I did things I regretted nearly every day. Things I hoped would never see the light of day. As a sober person, I have done a few things that were incredibly bone-headed.

I have also loved someone who did something disgraceful and it ended up in the local newspaper. My life was turned into a living hell for a period of time, and this event had a lot to do with our relationship ending.

I cannot even imagine having the media at large talking about my genitalia and all of the stupid things I have said. Imagine having every text you sent, every e-mail, every word, analyzed in front of millions of horrified eyes. Granted, I have never had a secret second family, or sent photos of my "parts" to someone else. But as far as the photos, I can't possibly convince myself that I would not have done that when drunk if I had access to all the technology drunks have today. Oh, it is horrifying to me to even imagine!

So, I say a prayer for those people whose lives are being torn to shreds. And I also say a prayer of thanksgiving for the fact that I am not dealing with these things in my life today. Oh, Thank God!


dAAve said...

Just another reason to be GRATEFUL to be sober!

I also watch TV news. Although, these days, I consider it opinions more than news. But the TV is always on whether I'm actually watching it or not. No big deal.

Pammie said...

When these peoples "best thinking" comes out on the news, I always think to myself that they must have been drunk. LOL

Syd said...

I am a news watcher as well. I think that power is the ultimate corrupter. And perhaps there is some kind of sexual addiction as well. I am glad that you didn't "act" out using social media. Today's world is filled with a bunch of ridiculous stuff from people who don't understand the ramifications until caught.

Annette said...

There but for the grace of God go I. Love your humility and compassion MC...those are beautiful things.

Kathy said...

I just want to say that I popped into your blog today to see if you started to write again. I was pleasantly surprised to see that you did and now I have a lot of catching up to do. I can't even find the blog that said you were going to quit writing so it is pages back. Glad to see you are back.

Kathy said...

Sorry, I looked back and it was in December that you stopped writing. I have now caught up. Will keep your son in my thoughts. Good luck with all of your dental work.

Lola said...

Hi Mary,

I am a recovering Alcoholic too, and a TV news reporter. It gets very tough. I actually started my own blog. You may want to check it out for an interesting perspective. I just started it and haven't written about the news stuff yet, but trust me, I will. You can find it at:

PS - Lola Wang is not me real name. I need to stay Anonymous in this biz for now. :)

Lola said...

Also, I would love it if you could share my link on your blog!


restoreustosanity said...

I love your blog. I felt a real connection regarding my own sobriety. I have started my own blog recently and you have inspired me to keep writing.
From a recovering alcoholic mom of grown kids.