I love, love, love October. Late yesterday afternoon, I decided to take today off. Combined with the Monday holiday of Columbus Day, I will have a 4 day weekend. Suddenly, in my office, I was whistling and singing and one of my co-workers noticed that my entire being had changed. I need a vacation desperately. I will have this 4 day weekend and then I have the half-marathon next weekend and then the weekend after that I have a retreat to go to.
I went to the 6:30 meeting this morning. I found it discouraging to hear a man who is nearly 20 years sober and still hates his mother. That's what the steps are for! Jeeez Louise, we have to get over this stuff. Sorry to be judgmental, but it was so striking to me. It is so hideously ugly to hear a 60 year old man whining about his mother. Yuck. I should strike this paragraph, but probably won't.
So this morning, I took my last kind of long run before my race. I ran 5 miles around a lake, through the golden cottonwood trees, in the crisp autumn air. It was glorious. I took a picture of a tree, but blogger won't let me post a photo this morning for some reason.
I had a revelation of sorts in the past couple of days: I decided that treating my son as a guest is probably not the best thing for either of us. I asked him if he would please install new lighting fixtures in my living room, dining room, kitchen and foyer. He said YES! And then I called my beloved sponsee J., and asked her (since she remodels homes for a living) if she would go with me and help me pick out the fixtures. She asked when I could, I originally said Friday night (not having yet decided to take today off) and she said that was practically "date night" for lesbians at Lowe's and Home Depot. I told her I would wear a flannel shirt. She said that a short skirt and heels would probably be better!
Anyway, I probably should not spend this money, but I am going to. I HATE the 80s crap in my house and I am going to get rid of it, piece by piece.
This is a long and rambling post. It is so wonderful to have the luxury of time. My house is such a pleasant place in the daytime... I feel like I never get to experience it.
"Let's remember that alcoholics are not the only ones bedeviled by sick emotions. In many instances we are really dealing with fellow sufferers, people whose woes we have increased. If we are to ask forgiveness for ourselves, why shouldn't we start out by forgiving them, one and all." -- Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, p. 78
6 comments:
I second the love for October. It is a glorious month.
DS and I bought light fixtures today at Lowe's for a client. I remarked to him how many really nice light fixtures there are for such reasonable prices. And you can just take them with you. We are so spoiled here in the USA. But, that is our karma.
I have to agree with you and those with double digits that still have the same stuff they came in with. It is sad to me. I did not get sober to be miserable, at least not when I can do something about it.
Have a really great weekend and throw out all that dated 80s stuff.
Hi MC. I'm glad I had you to email at work today. sigh
I know several people in meetings who never seem to "get over" old stuff. I'm proud when I can still remember old stuff, much less any emotions attached to them.
I love the thrill of a new light fixture! We're square :)
Love reading the blog
love in fellowship
Nigel
North Wales
I am remodelling my 70's stuff -- one piece at a time. That includes me, but I am 50's stuff.
Lesbian Night at Lowes should include a U-Haul trailer in which to take the fixtures home.
"That's what the steps are for! Jeeez Louise, we have to get over this stuff."
Thanks for saying that. I am trying really hard to stay positive as I go through this and get screwed up when people at meetings are moaning and groaning. I am empathetic to a fault but day in and day out?? I really hate when people say "my alcoholism did this to me today". That drives me crazy! Seems to me if you are following the program you can stop the acholism from doing anything. There is a solution and it is more than just meetings.
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