Monday, April 19, 2010

Exhaustion

The lovely indulgence of going to bed when it is still light outside. I should be at Biblical School. I literally cannot keep my eyes open. I actually closed my office door for a moment this afternoon and put my head down and actually fell asleep! Others have speculated that I am suffering from allergies... but I have never had them before and I have no sinus type stuff. I am just utterly and completely exhausted. Maybe I am just really, really tired? It could happen.

So, while the birds are still singing, and the sun is still in the sky, I will lay my weary head down on my pillow. And I will thank God that I can. I have missed one of my last nights of school and I do regret that, but I have missed very few nights this year, and I think I will be fine.

My daughter and granddaughters were just here for dinner. What a blessing to see my daughter as a sober woman. As she was leaving, she told me she is heading over to a meeting I used to go to years and years ago. She really has come to like that meeting. She goes to a big book study there on Monday nights.

I never thought I would ever have these conversations with my daughter. I am so grateful.

But if there were a contest right now between gratitude for sweet pillowcase on which to lay my head vs. sweet conversation about sober things with my sober daughter -
oh, there is no competition. They are both unbearably sweet.

Thank you God.

7 comments:

Syd said...

I am tired today too MC. I didn't sleep well last night. Had a late meeting tonight and will do a fifth step and chair the study group and then do the regular meeting tomorrow night. Phew! Time for me to hit the pillow as well.

dAAve said...

Please take care of yourself. We don't want to be an example of what NOT to do.

Bobby said...

One of the great things about being sober is that you get to pass out from exhaustion rather than from alcohol. It sounds like life in recovery is going well for you. Keep up the good work and thank you for sharing the success of your sobriety with us.

shadowlands said...

Amen Mary. Real sleep, wonderful.I will hopefully email you, when I come through the other end of this latest bout. The fear always gets intense for a few days, so I will go quiet, blog wise, for a while.

AnyEdge said...

It occurs to me that your exhaustion might be the natural effect of all that work and running and getting up early you do?

It sounds miraculously satisfying to me. This weekend I cleaned out my garage, and I was exhausted and happy Saturday afternoon.

Ed G. said...

I'm happy for the sweet things you get to experience.

Blessings and aloha...

Her Big Sad said...

I managed to lose your link... took me forever and a day to figure out my way back to you... :)

As for tiredness - my oldest daughter is saying the same thing. She has never experienced such tiredness as she is this few weeks. She is halfway blaming the allergy season which is horrendous this year, and halfway contemplating a test for mono (would be her third case of it)...

I hope you are feeling much more rested these days!