Tuesday, January 26, 2010

If you want to do something top-secret...

Do it in Iowa! Yesterday morning, I checked the Weather Channel, AccuWeather, CNN, local news, etc. for weather reports for Iowa. They all reported intermittent "flurries" throughout the day. So I headed out for a long drive from Nebraska to Iowa. I drove six hours through Nebraska and then got 30 miles into Iowa and realized I could go no further. I stopped for information and discovered that the state had issued the warning "travel not recommended" for most of the state's highways. It was a blizzard and the blizzard was expected to continue until 9 p.m. There were trucks jackknifed everywhere. Cars in ditches. Accidents. Near white-out conditions.

After driving 600 miles, I turned around and started heading home. I stopped and called my sister -- her flight was canceled out of New York, so she wasn't able to get there either. It seems we were not meant to be at that funeral.

We spent a fair amount of time on the phone yesterday talking about my father's death - seventeen years ago. This is something that was so divisive in my family that we really don't talk about it. We talked and talked and talked and cried. And I have to think that is good. Sometimes ancient history rears its head and I am glad we can talk about it.

I am glad I am not going to the funeral of the woman who caused so much trouble in my family. I learned to love her. I learned to not have resentment and hatred. I had to do these things if I were to be sober and live in peace. But you know what? I don't have to risk my life to attend her funeral and I am not going to. I will keep her in my prayers. And I will hope that she is in peace. Sincerely. But I do not need to be there.

Thank God I can go home.

I am actually looking forward to the rest of the drive. No matter how long it takes. I think the wind has actually died down. I have been driving through gusts of up to 50 mph for the last 2 days. I am feeling kind of battered and tired. But I have great peace as I head home.... home.... home... I am gratefully heading home.


11 comments:

Kim A. said...

Things working out for the highest good always make my heart smile. Who knows why the wind blows the way it does at times? But I'm glad it is blowing you home.

Namaste

Ann said...

Safe travels home!!!! Good decision!!

Scott W said...

Driving in those conditions will wear a body out! Safe travels!

She answers to Layla said...

I'm new to your blog, recommended by Google Reader!
I'm in recovery in Prescott, Arizona, and LOVE blogging...Thank you for your candid and loving posts!

Looking forward to more.
Be safe!

Carverlane said...

Oh my goodness...she is headed home! Glad you can put that behind you now. Your willingness is a powerful example.

Kim in sAn Antonio (hope to see all you bloggers at the Convention!)

Syd said...

Some things are not meant to be. No sense in having to attend your own funeral because of a car accident. Take care and have safe travels home.

Ed G. said...

Glad you're probably home by now. I think that qualifies as a "journey." You can learn where you are. Glad to see that you do.

Blessings and aloha...

dAAve said...

Well, kiss my cheek and slap my knee!

It's all about the journey.

Elsie said...

My friend Mary always says "the world is in divine order". Best wishes.

Mary LA said...

Have a safe journey home. That conversation with your sister sounds very moving.

Pam said...

Oh Mary, do a few nice things for yourself on the drive back...like a big pancake breakfast or a new CD. I'm so glad you were able to have a good talk/cry with your sister. Go home darlin'.
REMEMBER: DON'T KNIT AND DRIVE.